Yellow

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-Day 1-

Yellow. Surrounding me, everywhere, overwhelming and comforting at the same time. Every time I closed my eyes: Yellow. It felt like plunging head-down into a pool of all the good in the whole world. Ever since I first experienced this feeling I just close my eyes for a second and mute my thoughts at least once a day. Sometimes the yellow is almost orange or even red, but it still feels like it always feels, every day there ever was and ever will be.

And yellow is the colour I try to connect all good things in my life with. My curtains that hide the dark night away from me are yellow like the sun as are my bedroom walls. All my notebooks are filled with little yellow post-its on which I note small positive memories or nice things people say to me.

My friends don't really know of my favourite colour and the metaphor it has become for me, only my sister does. Said sister, Ella, is sadly living far away, it is a three hour flight to her city and I'm scared of heights and thus of flying. So to be honest, I'm not really a social person. I mean, I do have friends and my usual group of people I hang around with at school, I just don't talk about myself very much and I don't enjoy partying or sport clubs. In my freetime, I mostly spend time with myself and my thoughts. My mother calls me weird and would probably be happy if I was more of a normal teenager, but I'm happy and I think that she should be glad that I am, since everybody my age seems to be having a lot of problems.

Anyway. Today has been the first day of school and it made me really sad to see all the brown and red and even yellow leaves flying in the breeze above my head on my way to school, because it means that autumn is coming and this means that winter is coming and winter does not mean yellow and I really need yellow in my life. My body sometimes stops functioning when I'm unable to get enough yellow each day.

But besides that, today was okay. I guess. I don't really know because I didn't stay as long as I was supposed to, but I saw my friends and my classes are okay too. Ben, who you could probably call my best friend, hugged me really tight and the first thing he told me was that we're going to go on a camping trip on Friday because he got his drivers license during summer break and I grinned and got really excited. I still am, thinking of Ben and me alone in a car on the road with some good music playing and of me running atop a hill to take pictures with one of my cameras and then Ben and me setting up our tent and trying to make something to eat on a too-large bonfire and oh my, I just can't wait for Friday! At school, I got so excited I had to leave because I tend to just zone out when I'm really looking forward to something. My mind then goes a bit crazy and I kind of live in what I imagine the something to be and it then is real hard for me to concentrate on school or teachers or things to be done that don't personally matter to me.

I should probably explain what exactly this thing here is. Since this year will hopefully be my last year in school I hope to make something great out of it and I plan on documenting this year in here. You could call it a diary, but I will only tell you of all the important things that happen. Like yellow, yellow is one basic thing you have to know to really get me. And my name, you should also know my name to understand the things I'm going to tell you.

I'm Arthur and I like living my life to the fullest, to the utter and complete extent.