Yellow

12

-Good Day-

Glad. I'm so incredibly lucky and glad that Alice is part of my life, that she's here, right by my side and that I finally found a human who really gets me. I sound so damn cheesy right now, I probably am, but for the first time in what feels like forever my mind is finally calm and filled with this soft, warm sensation called happiness and that makes me even happier. Incredible, right? Unbelievable, almost.

 And as if to prove me right, there still is that little, small voice in the back of my head telling me to be careful, constantly whispering things like "She doesn't care about you, she's faking it all, don't you dare fall for it! As if anybody could ever like you, let alone love you! You're a loner, remember?". Right now, the voice is very quiet, an almost inaudible whisper, but at times it is all I can hear, flooding my mind and drowning the sane thoughts out. I'm good though, at the moment. 

Alice and I just got back from the movies, where we watched a film about a boy who built a whole new world for himself in his head because he had too many difficulties with participating in the real world. I guess his new,private world is something like my yellow, and the smile that spread across my face when I realized that I didn't really need my yellow anymore thanks to Al is still there. 

"Hey, Art?"

"Yeah?"

"I know it sounds weird, but I'm craving the ocean right now.", unlike me, Alice isn't smiling at all. Her eyes are still clear and shining though, so she must be okay. 

"Doesn't sound weird at all, Alice. But you know, the ocean isn't that far away. We could easily drive and be there in half an hour."

"I was hoping you'd say that.", and now her face is bright again, smile spreading across it and illuminating her eyes. I let go of her hand and wrap my right arm around her, pulling her into my side as we hurriedly walk back to my house. 

Luckily and thanks to Alice' charme, my mother allows us to borrow her car, I quickly tidy it up a bit and Alice prepares a few sandwiches for us. A good fifteen minutes later, we finally end up in the car since I haven't yet gotten my drivers license, Alice is driving. 

Because of that, I get to choose the music and finally decide on a mixture of older songs from Twenty One Pilots. 

"Normally, this kind of music would totally pull me down and make me feel sad, but right now I must admit, I actually like it."

"I was hoping you'd say that.", I tease her, but to be honest, I'm really damn glad that she likes my taste in music because it's a huge part of who I am today. She smirks at me and quietly starts to hum along to the melodies floating in the air around us. 

I must have fallen asleep because as soon as I open my eyes, I feel instantly relaxed. Alice parked the car directly facing the beach, so there's only white sand and stormy blue water infront of me. It's strange how much I missed this view without even realizing it. Alice is no longer sitting next to me and all of our bags are gone, so she probably just left me sleeping in the car and went ahead to the beach.

And just like I thought she would there she is, wrapped up in a blanket and reading a book. The beach is surprisingly empty, only a few people sprawled out on the sand here and there and an old man wandering along the coastline. 

"Hey, sleepyhead!", she shouts as soon as she spots me drowsily walking towards her. 

"Hi yourself. How long have I been asleep?"

"Almost an hour, but don't worry I didn't go swimming without you!", she stands up and wraps me in a hug. I smile and bury my head in her neck, then quickly grab my swimming shorts and go change since she's already wearing her dark blue bikini. 

"Ready?", I drop my clothes onto her pile of stuff and grab her hand. She nods and somewhat cheesily starts to run, pulling me along. It's not yet summer, but the sun is out and the sky cloudless for once, so it's not as cold as you'd expect it to be in mid-april.  We sprint into the ocean and I immediately let go of her hand, diving in head first and just enjoy the rare, comforting silence that can only be found underwater for a few moments. Alice is drifting directly next to me, her body sprawled out on the surface of the water. Sometimes I would give literally anything to be able to take a picture with my eyes and to keep it with me forever, and this moment right here definitely deserves to be captured. I feel so free underwater, so calm and relaxed. The insulting voices in my head are for once completely quiet and for now, there's only the waves and the sand and me. I'm even able to spot a bit of yellow in the blue sea surrounding me, caused by the sunrays reaching out for the bottom of the ocean through the water. Slowly, my lungs start to burn and I give in to the ache for oxygen, abruptly breaking through the surface. I gasp for air and squint my eyes at the sudden brightness. Alice is still floating next to me, eyes closed and muscles relaxed. I decide to do the same, grab her hand and let my body follow the ways of the water, probably smiling like an idiot. And we stay that way until our fingertips are all wrinkly and Alice's lips start turning blue.