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Journal Entry: I had an anxiety attack?

Author's Note: Hmm..not sure if I want to keep this entry or not...
Journal Entry: I had an anxiety attack?
April 19, 2015
Time started: 9:40 PM

Hey reader(s),

Something happened to me tonight..and I'm a little scared about what had happened. I'm not sure if it will ever come back. I've never experienced this type of thing before and I'm scared that it will come back. I think I had an anxiety attack. I'm 99.9% percent sure that I had one. So here's what happened.

I have a math test tomorrow and don't understand anything so I tried asking my sister for help. She did for awhile and she got stressed and angry because I still didn't understand it at all. So she asked me to solve this one part and I was scared and nervous because I didn't want her to yell at me. I suddenly felt like the room was getting darker and my ears started to ring very loudly. I fell to the floor and started sweating and breathing uncontrollably. I tried wiping my face with my shirt because I was sweating so much. I know this next part is stupid but I couldn't think straight so don't judge me. I started hitting my head thinking that would resolve the ringing in my ears. But it didn't.

I also felt dizzy and didn't know what to do. I struggled calming myself while I was on the floor and just looked at my sister with worry. She only stared at me like I was crazy and just waited for me to answer the problem. I saw it in her eyes. She didn't understand what was going on. She thought I was overreacting but I wasn't. This was real. I'm freaking out right now because I don't know what to do and I'm afraid I will get an F on my test tomorrow. I don't want to ask my dad for help because he tried helping me before and he probably thinks I understand it. It's also very late and I'm super tired. However, I can't fall asleep because I'm full of worry about my test and what had happened to me.

I think I may have an anxiety disorder but I'm not sure. I looked it up and match with some symptoms but I'm not sure if I do. It's really hard for me to get myself together now. All I can think about is the anxiety attack and the test tomorrow. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm scared, stressed, and worried...