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Explanation! (READ!)

Basically I'm going to explain why I haven't been updating😕
There's lots of reasons😑

School
In school had a small friendship group (there was 4 of us) but then one of my 'mates' outside of the friendship group caused my friendship group to fall out with me😞 this happened 1 day when I wasn't at school😕 this led to them messaging me saying horrible things which caused me to cry😭 when I went back to school a few days later, I was on my own😞 I sorted it out with one of them who was my best friend😌 but I can't talk to her in school without the others telling me to shut up or they start talking to her so I can't😔 now everyday in school, I feel like shit and my confidence goes down even more😩 one of them leaves me alone but one of them doesn't😑 the one that doesn't leave me alone, we've known each other 11 years and she knows about my past bullying😞 but look what she's doing now (idc that she can see this tbh)😬

Anxiety and depression
Basically I have both of these. With my anxiety, I struggle talking to people, and everything has to be perfect😕 in school, I hate walking round the corridor because of small gaps and I'm scared of being judged😞 in class, I hardly talk any because 1. I have no friends and 2. I'm scared I'll say something and everyone will laugh and judge me😭 my depression basically just puts me in a dark place that I can't get out of😑 sometimes I'll cry out of no where😭 I always have suicidal thoughts and feel the need to pi my blade back up😖 anxiety and depression have basically ruined my life😭 this isn't everything it's just a brief explanation😔

No energy
Basically I've been really ill lately and it's got to the point where I physically can't eat😔 so I haven't ate in nearly a week😕 great excuse to starve myself😞 I've lost a ton of weight and with not eating, I've lost all my energy like all I'm doing lately is sleeping😴 writing this, is using all the energy I have left in me😕

Leaving it there now😔 I hope you understand😑 I'v put this on my other book aswell✌️ I don't know when the next update will be sorry😭