Fear me dear

Part 10

It took Lee a long time to settle back in to his regular routine. I had been spending all my time with Lee. I mean seriously? We had been living in the hospital when Lee was in his coma and mum was looking after her baby. Now everyone was home. Mum and James were back with Delilah. Mary and Jona were living in the house. I was still arguing with James about them selling the house. But I was always with Lee.

  “So explain to me again why you’re still arguing with James and your mum?” I sighed and started throwing one of Lee’s pens in the air and catching it. “Basically. James keeps saying how we need to move for the baby’s sake when there is plenty of room for that little twat to live there and mum knows when I’m going to meet Oli and she is always like Oh no you can’t I need help with Delilah. Fuck Delilah get Mary or Jona to help it’s their fucking sister too!” I mocked everyone in that speech. “So what about you and Oli are you still good?” I stopped throwing the pen and sighed. I turned to face lee directly. “I’m not sure. He has been a bit weird lately like, I don’t know I guess we’re ok but urgh fuck it I’m honestly sick of life right now. Why can’t James just accept the fact we’re not moving and why doesn’t mum just accept the fact I’m not her slave!” Lee laughed again. “What about you and Jona? You two good?” Yet again I shrugged “Yeah we bonded at the hospital. We don’t argue like we used to. It’s probably best I head home” I got up and hugged Lee “See ya love you” I reached his bedroom door “Oli is coming over at like 11 tomorrow. You can come over then if your mum is stopping you from seeing him. Love you too”  I smiled and headed back to my house.

  “Where have you been?” Soon as I walked in the house I’m bombarded with questions. “At Lee’s house why?” My mum was sat on the sofa “I was just worried. You weren’t with Oli were you?” I sighed “For god sake no!” I looked around the house “Where is everyone?” My mum looked around too. We couldn’t hear any noise what so ever. “Erm James took Jona to band with everyone and Mary is upstairs and obviously Lilah is here” My mum smiled. I smiled back. I sat down opposite her. Next to her is too far. She looked at me. “Hannah would you like to hold Lilah?” I looked at the baby. I just nodded. I think it was about time I realised that my mum had another baby. I held her and looked at her. That was it. Highlight of my life blah blah blah. I handed her back.

   I sat in my room by myself thinking. For god sake. I’m happy but not happy. I’m happy because me and Jona are friendly now Lee is ok Mary is happy and Oli but I’m sad because James wants me to move the new baby what happened to lee  my dad and Oli. Why can’t I just be happy? Is it that fucking hard? I haven’t seen Oli in a week, I have to sneak around. If we want to see each other it has to be at Lee’s house.

  I lay on my bed for a while. It had been a month since everything. Since Lee got out of hospital. Since the baby was born. Since me and Oli. My phone buzzed.

O: Lee tells me you’re coming to see me tomorrow? ;) Haven’t seen you in like a fucking week Jesus :0 We seriously need to get this sorted “/ Xxx

H: I am indeed ;) I know so long and I swear down I will have words with my mum and James. They need to understand my feelings Xxx

O: What feelings? Are you ok? Is there anything I can help you with? Xxx

H: Just all this shit going on. I’m like happy me and Jona are close and I’m happy lee is better and Mary is happy and you’re my boyfriend but then again I’m fucked up because James still wants to move and the baby is pissing me off and what happened to lee I’m not over my dad and I can’t see you. Fucking pisses me off “/ xxx

O: Ok well I can sort out the you seeing me problem because we will see each other a lot if that’s what you wish! I mean I’m sure if you have words with James and Your mum quietly you can sort something. We can’t put the baby back in your mum’s uterus but Lee is doing good! And your dad’s story well I don’t really know it but I won’t ask and I’m sorry about that but he is in you and I know that for a fact. I’ll see you tomorrow any way! Good night love Xxx

 I'm sorry if this fanfic is getting boring and confusing and bad but I had writers block on some chapters but fear not it gets better :D

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