In Love With The Preacher's Daughter

38. Some People You Want To Leave In The Past

Rashad👆🏾

KoKo POV

He turned to look at me and when he saw me we just stared at each other. I couldn't believe he was here and we were standing here looking at each other after all this time. It was like for a moment I couldn't move or speak all I could do was blink and breathe.

He took a step towards me and my breathing quickened

"Koko?" He questioned looking me up and down

"Damn girl I ain't seen you in forever" he leaned in to hug me and I put my hand up taking a step back

"Don't" I mumbled as old memories started to rush back into my head both good and bad

"C'mon ma don't be like that" he looked at me and tried to grab my hand

"1 Don't touch me, 2 I'm not ya ma, and 3 be like what don't act like we're cool cuz we're not" I said as a matter of factly

"Aight I get it, how you been? You looking damn good" He said looking me up and down and then biting his lip

"I've been doing perfectly fine, I see you still doing the same ol' thang" I gestured to the girl that was with him, which just so happened to have been the same girl he cheated on me with

"About that..." He started rubbing the back of his neck

"Koko I never meant to hurt you ma" He stated looking at me and I started to get that feeling like I was going to cry in the pit of my stomach

I just looked at him trying to keep a straight face "I was just going through a lot ma, and I wasn't in my right mind. I know you noticed I had been drinking and smoking more than usual. She was a friend who was there for me during my freshmen year when I needed to talk and we never fucked until that time you know" he said and by that point I was getting a little angry cuz I knew he was lying

"So you could talk to some random bitch over your girlfriend when you were going through something" I questioned

"You wouldn't have un--" I cut him off

"Don't you dare say I wouldn't have understood, I was always there for you and I had your back through every fucking thing. I went against my fucking family and friends and stayed with you even when all of them told me not to" I noticed I was getting loud and I calmed myself down

"Regardless of the things you were going through that didn't give you the right to cheat on me in my fucking house. You should've just broken up with me instead of hurting me like that." I lowered my voice mugging him.

"I know ma it was wrong but I wasn't thinking and I was drunk. You were my world baby hell you still are I think about you everyday, you know I would've never hurt you like that on purpose" he said looking at me in my eyes and I felt that lump rise in my throat and my eyes stinging from the tears welting up

"I can't do this, not today" I whispered turning to walk out of the store wiping my eyes

This was just too much, I've never really dealt with how he hurt me I just tried to put a band-aid over an open wound and seeing him today felt like he was just ripping it off over and over.

As I was walking out I heard him calling my name and then he eventually caught up to me grabbing me by my hand turning me around

"Wait baby let's talk about dis" he looked at me with pleading eyes and I snatched my hand away from him

"Don't call me baby and tell me I was your world when you fucking cheated on me after I gave you everything. I gave you 5 years of my life, I gave you my heart, my mind, my body you were my first. When you were on the verge of getting kicked out of school I had my grandfather call and settle things with the dean I did that.