Wut.

Pity Bait

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This...it just makes me shake my head. Any time you see a twitter or Instagram post that has a picture of someone without makeup, and they say something stupid like "I'm so ugly!" and then the pity party flows in, like, why else would you post a picture of yourself if you thought it was ugly? Oh, I know, you want people to compliment you. You want them to say, "Oh, its alrihgt ill protetct u bby! ur not ugly, ur just sensitive!" Like, really? And whenever I see the posts on twitter, I have no Idea what to do with it! If I retweet it, complimenting them, then I'll be a hypocrite, if I tell them what they're falling into, I'll look like a douchebag, so I have to just scroll past it. But why? Why should I have to? How about you just get you and your self proclaimed ugly ass off of my feed?

When I say how ugly I am, or that I'm trash, or how dumb I am, it's because I'm insulting myself for being those things. I do not look that attractive, that is fact in my brain. I believe that I have become one of those fans who dedicate their entire lives to their fandoms and being fandom trash. I am in academy classes, you don't need to remind me how academically smart I am, but I act really dumb, I make dumb decisions.

When I say those things, I don't want your pity, I just want to say it so that you know my opinion of myself. I don't hate myself, I actually love most parts of my life, I just choose to talk about the negative things. I don't want you to feel sorry for me, actually, I prefer it if you agree with me.

So yeah, Compliments make me feel weird. I have no Idea how to respond to them. Insults however, are better. I like them. Go ahead. Heckle me. Or don't I really don't care. I just like to write my thoughts down here. You just like to/ are told to read it, probably by me because I want you to know my opinion.