Walking Travesty

Catch My Breath And Go For It

A/N: Okay guys there are literally a billion things I have to say. First I have to announce who's going to be in my book. To the people who isn't going to be in it I am SO sorry and if I could, you would all be in it. I feel so bad for not including some of you so please please please don't hate me. The two people I chose was the persons I thought fitted to this book the best but honestly you all sound fucking amazing. I chose @davey_jones to be Tristans girlfriend and @ILoveBraddyBoy to be James' girlfriend. Congrats you guys and to all of you other amazing readers I love you so please forgive me! Please keep reading and please keep commenting because you guys are really amazing I promise! xxx 

After sitting on Brad's bed for good 10 minutes Connor suggested that we should hang out at his place later. I had to go home showering and apparently James and Tristan had girlfriends I should meet. I was so freaking scared that I would say something wrong and ruin everything. Like I said I'm so awkward around people plus Aaron and Brad is going to be there. The good thing is that it's a sleepover so I don't have to face my father who is actually home today. Weird enough. "Shall I drive you home?", Aaron asked taking my hand. He kissed my knuckles and chuckled. I just noddded and stood up from the bed with him following. I waved goodbye to the others and looked at Brad who was staring back at me before I closed the bedroom door behind me. "You look like you need to sleep", Aaron said softly as he opened the car door for me. " Maybe. I need a shower more I think", I laughed as he sat in the driver's seat. "Are you okay with meeting the other girls? I know you're kind of shy", he said and smiled starting the car. "I- I think so", I lied and smiled back. I didn't want him to worry about me. The drive home was nice and silent giving me a chance to think. Everyone was wondering why I didn't want Brad to get in trouble and why I worried so much, but if they knew what could have happened he would have been a dead boy. I don't think anyone deserves to be treated like that, not even Zac. Even though he is stupid and mean he is still just a human being. It hurts me that some people actually get treated like that. And when I answered the phone this morning I just knew that something was wrong. Brad never admitted when he was scared. I understood him though. I don't like admitting to people that I'm scared either. I hate showing people that I'm weak, especially when it comes to my mom. She's terribly ill and I can't do anything to help her. "Are you okay Clara?", Aaron asked with worry clear in his eyes. It was nice that someone cared. "Yes". He knew something was wrong and I didn't want to talk about it and he respected my privacy. Then why do I want to talk to Brad about it and not him? "What was it Scar did?", Aaron asked changing the subject. I giggled when I remembered hearing Connor in the background when I called Scar. They so did it. "She slept with Connor", I laughed and Aarons Jar dropped. "No way". "Yes way", I laughed louder and soon he joined in. I liked his laugh. But Brad's was so much better. "that's so weird!". I nodded and looked out of the window. "Have you... ever done it?", he asked awkwardly as he parked the car in front of my house. I froze by the sudden question and almost choked in my own spit. "N-no", I stuttered hating myself for stuttereing. Again. "Okay". "Have you?", I asked and regretted it as soon as I said it. He nodded and looked at his hands. "oh". Of course he had. Why wouldn't he? I mean he's sweet, caring and ridiculously hot. Plus he has a skateboard, can sing and can play the guitar. Well. This was awkward. "Well I guess I'll see you later", I whispered and opened the door. "Yea", was his reply. I stumbled out of the car and closed it behind me. He took a last glance at me before sighing and driving away. I opened the front door to be greeted with Freya so I sat down on the floor and she ran into my arms wagging her tail around. "Hi girl", I whispered kissing her nose. She licked my cheek as a response and I laughed and hugged her. My dog loved hugs. She was like a mini human. I was so sure that she could understand what I was saying. "who do you think is better looking?", I asked. "Choose. Lick my right hand and it's Brad or my left hand and it's Aaron", I said raising my hand. After 5 seconds she licked my right hand and barked. "well okay then", I said standing up. I kissed the top of her head and she followed me to my room where she jumped up into my bed and made herself comfortable. I smiled before taking a long and hot shower. I really needed this. It was nice feeling my muscles relax after so many hours of cleaning a big white house. Like honestly who has that much white furniture? It's insane. I hope Brad's okay and that they haven't found out yet. If they had I would never forgive myself. I should have done a better job cleaning. I dried myself off and wrapped a towel around my body. Freya was sleeping soundly on my bed. Of course my dog was snoring. Great. Okay so I have to get clothes and pack an over night bag. I pulled on some black ripped skinny jeans, a black tank top and my red and black flannel shirt where the sleeves were pulled up to my elbows. That will have to do for now. I let my hair down straightening it and took on my classes since I've been wearing contacts since last night. They were starting to get uncomfortable. I pulled out bag from underneath my bed and pulled my hand through my hair thinking of what to bring. I haven't been to a lot of sleepovers. Or I have been at Scar's but that was different. What are we like 9 people? It's like a mini party. I pulled out a pair of black pyjama shorts, an oversized T-shirt with All Time Low written on it and a pair of black fluffy socks. Then clothes for tomorrow and my bathroom essentials. I pulled on my jacket and my vans before swinging the bag on my shoulder and knocked on Jacob's door. He opened it seconds later and hugged my waist. "Where are you going?", he asked looking up at me with a sad face. "I'm going to stay at a friends house. Are you going to be okay with dad?", I asked him and he sighed. "I guess. But even when he's home from work he's working. Last night I wanted to watch spiderman with him but he said that he didn't have the time". A tear slipped from his eyes making my heart ache. He was just a little kid. His mom was in the hospital and his had didn't have the time for him. When I get home tomorrow I'm going to spend the day with him. "Let me have a word with him okay?", I whispered and he nodded. I kissed his cheek and promised him that I would call him to say goodnight and walked straight into dad who was talking to someone on his phone. " I'm going", I said and he just nodded not even looking at me. "Can you please spend some time with Jacob? Or else you'll loose him too", I muttered and he stared at me. "Loose him too?", he asked confused. "yes". "Who else have I lost?", he asked even more confused. I breathed in and looked him dead in the eyes. "Me", I whispered. His jar dropped and his phone slit out of his hand breaking into pieces on the floor. I turned around and walked out of the door wiping a tear from my eye as I did so. Now he knew what the consequenses were, and I felt empty. He didn't care anymore...