Walking Travesty

Six Feet Under The Stars

Okay. Okay was just a little word compared to many other words. He could have used a whole sentence to answer me but he chose to use one word. One word to make me the happiest person alive. Yes, I know It can't be more cliché than that, but it wasn't like I cared. What I cared about was Brad. He would actually try having a normal relationship. After breaking up with Hailey of course. That was still on the back of my mind. When was he going to break up with her though? "B-Brad?", I asked, lightly pulling away from his sweet kisses. "mhm?", he asked not stopping, only moving to my cheek and down my neck. "W-when are you breaking up with Hailey?", I asked quietly making him stop completely. His eyes locked with mine as he helped me up in a sitting position. "When I leave here", he said honestly. "You want me do it now?", he asked standing up. I stood up as fast as him grabbing his wrist. He winced making me look at his wrist. "again?", I whispered inspecting his wrist as he nodded sadly. "What did they claim you did this time?". He shrugged clearly not wanting to tell. "Brad", I said sternly making him sigh deeply. "I was sitting at the piano when he found out we had run out of vodka". I looked up at him and this time his fear was more clear than ever. "You didn't even do anything?", I asked shocked. So it wasn't only when he did something they didn't want him to do? He shook his head and I threw myself into his arms giving him a big hug. I didn't say sorry as I knew he wouldn't accept my apology. He would just get a bit mad. He still thought he was a bad person. "Don't worry Clara. I'm okay", he whispered into my ear his lips touching it. It only made me close my eyes and hug him tighter. He wasn't okay. Even though he kept telling me and himself he was, deep down I think he knew. None of this was okay. At all. "I need to go. Got some breaking up to do", he said pulling away grinning. He was trying to hide his sadness, and there was nothing I could do about it. I nodded a bit and looked at the floor. "I'll see you tomorrow at the beach right?", he asked. "What about school?". he shook his head. "My mom are away this weekend so I'm ditching". Oh. I was so excited to spend my P.E class with him. "I'll see you after okay? I can pick you up if you want?", he asked and I nodded. It would be nice not walking for a change. "Don't be so sad. You're going to see me shirtless", he whispered as he came walking closer. Oh yea. The beach. I wasn't comfortable with that. "I don't think I'm going to swim", I whispered back placing my hands on his chest. "Why?". "I need to wear a bikini?". His eyes widened. "why is that such a big problem?", he asked moving his face closer to mine. "I have to show off my body", I whispered back as if it wasn't obvious. I didn't even like showing off my legs. How the hell am I supposed to walk out on a beach showing pretty much everything excepts my private parts? It's kind of the same thing as walking outside only wearing your underwear? "You have a wonderful body". He still didn't seem to understand. Still, I blushed at that sentence. "Maybe you think that. B-but I don't", I whispered looking down. "Let's do this. Take on your bikini, but take on some clothes also. If you feel like swimming you can just take your clothes off", he suggested and that sounded like a good idea. I nodded a bit and he smiled before pecking me quick on the lips. "I'll see you tomorrow nerd", he smirked before walking out of my room...

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"Why did you leave so sudden yesterday?", Scar asked me as we sat down for lunch. Should I tell her? I feel like I need to. She was my best friend after all. "Brad hadn't broken up with Hailey", I said as casual as I could. It still stung a bit. "Rude. Aren't you guys like together?", she asked taking a bite of her chicken sandwich. "I don't know. I asked him last night when he came to my house. Or I said that I just wanted a normal relationship". "Then what did he say?". "Okay", I replied and she raised one eyebrow. "Just okay?", she asked and I nodded. "No 'Clara will you be mine". I shook my head. I had no idea what we were. Just friends or are we dating? Is he my boyfriend or not? "This is so confusing", I said to myself. "Brad is confusing. You know that. I don't understand what you see in him. I thought you hated him". "I thought so too. But I guess not". "What changed your mind?". "I don't know. Maybe how sweet he can be when he wants to? He cares about me", I whispered. It was true. If he didn't care he wouldn't have run after me in the park. Or come to my house as I went home. He must care in some way right? "Are you going to see him in P.E since he wasn't in English?", she asked and I shook my head. "He's ditching today. He's going to pick me up after though". "Are you guys going to the beach together?". I nodded and she smiled. "Cool. I got my mom to do her mother daughter day tomorrow instead. And you were right Clara. I should appreciate her. I know some people haven't got their parents". It made me so happy to hear that. It also made me a tad jealous. I missed my parents. I wanted dad to give me a hug and I wanted mom to tell me that she is okay. Just because I'm a teenager doesn't mean that I don't want love from my parents. Dad hasn't even called once since he left. He only transferred some more money into my bank account. To me that didn't show that he loved me. I showed me that he didn't care enough for me and Jacob to be here on his own taking care of the family he started. I finished off talking with Scarlet and made my way to the girls locker room to change. It would have been more fun to be with Brad but I guess I just have to cope without him. Luckily, we got told to run around the field or into the forest and since I didn't feel like running I tiptoed into the locker rooms changed into my normal clothes and called Brad. "Hello?", he asked through the phone and I giggled at his serious tone. "Can you pick me up?", I asked. I didn't bother to tell him it was me. "Of course. Be there in five". I hung up and sat down on one of the benches. He arrived 10 minutes later with a pair of shades on and a lovely smile. "It's such a lovely day isn't it?", he asked smiling and I nodded buckling up. "Want to go home or get something to eat?", he asked and took off the shades looking at me. "I need food".