The Melon-Head Boy -a Simdil fanfiction-

Chapter twentyfour:

(A/N: So I looked at the stats of my chapters today...

You guys have become very inactive :/ it's probably my fault because I didn't post for a while back...

About 90-100 of you used to read, but it has now decreased down to 30. :( What did I do wrong? Was it because of my inactive ness a while ago or has my chapters gone bad?

I just got inactive because school had just started wich gave me tests and at the same time I suffered from depression... I still do, but I'm fighting it and I've stopped cutting even though I get the urge to almost every day...

I'll just do the best I can with the chapters and hope that some people come back... I'm glad I still have 20-30 of you guys left (:

Hope you 30 still stay here. You probably wont.

Stay awesome,

//Elo x)

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-Simon's POV-

Please forgive me, please.

I'm slightly standing on my toes to reach up to him. He doesn't kiss back. He doesn't move. Even though my eyes are closed, I feel my tears already filling up.

I stop kissing him. I stand back steadily on my shoes. Every nerv in my body is fighting not to shake. He still doesn't move. I look up at him and his eyes are at mine, his pupils widely dialated but his face harsh.

I turn around and walk back to the classroom with a heavy heart. I really screw it up.

-Martin's POV-

As I'm about to finally kiss him back, fighting my brain, he stops. My brain won, should I be happy? Should I be happy that I can't forgive the love of my life?

I love him so much.

He walks away.

-Simon-

Baki dragged me out before our sixth class.

"So what did you do?" Baki asks, sitting with me at the school roof. It's freezing in the wind and my jacket's in my locker.

"What are yo-" I get cut off.

"C'mon," he says "Martin is avoiding you and you look like you're on the edge of crying every once in a hour. What did you do?"

"I questioned my sexuality" I answer, looking down at the cold, hard stone we're sitting on "and cheated on him" Before he can say anything, I keep on talking. "It wasn't intentional. I've been down for a while, feeling confused. I've realized that I'm bi... I needed to figure out what I felt and... I really didn't mean to, Baki. I love him so, so much. I hate myself for what I did and I don-"

"Stop" he cuts me off. Damn, let me finish my sentence "Simon. I'm not going to try to help you get him back. If you really do want him again, give him time to heal. I don't want to hear more complaining or self-judging. You and Martin had something and you will get it back. Just give it time and don't push it"

I just nod as an answer. I'm speechless, but I've still lost all hope. My heart aches for him, it feels empty and makes me feel hopeless.

"Now, we're going to talk" he points out carelessly

"About what?"

"... I don't know"

We sit there until the bell rings, telling us the school has ended. We didn't speak one word.

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(A/N: Okay so that chapter sucked. Sorry.

/Elo x?)