into the light - destiel

chapter 4 dream two and three

~deans POV~

'you fucking mess.'
' cas, please..'
'shut the fuck up! you ruined everything. you fucking ruined everything...team free will? TEAM FREE WILL?! all you ever did was fuck things up for me! you ruined my existence dean, you tainted me! I am no better than lucifer now. you, are worse.'
'cas please stop! I'm sorry!'
'no dean. it's too late...there's nothing left for me here. goodbye, dean Winchester. thanks for nothing.'
'cas, STOP!'

dean screamed in a blind panic and raced forward, grabbing castiel as he stabbed himself through the heart with his own Angel blade. a bright light shone through the room and dean felt an immense burning pain across his body, as he cradled the Angels limp figure in his arms.

'cas, please...cas...cas wake up.'

castiel did not move, nor did he answer dean. Dean sobbed uncontrollably for what seemed like hours, until he finally peeled himself away from the Corpse and released the über strong grip he had on cas, his hands unclenching around the material of the trench coat.
dean looked down at the lifeless body of cas, and then looked down at himself.

across his chest, arms, and even burnt onto his neck, were the scorch marks of the dead Angel. burnt into the shape of his wings, a permanent reminder of what dean had caused...the only comfort for Dean was the amount of pain he was in, although he knew nothing could amend his actions.

cas was right though...it was all his fault.

~sam, cas, Charlie POV~

'where are we now sam?'
'I don't know cas...'

Charlie grabbed hold of Sams hand in her own, and cas' in her other hand.

'we have to look for dean.'

the three set off walking down the highway, a mutual feeling of fear and uncertainty settled between them.
after walking for around half an hour, Cas spotted something in the distance.

'I believe that the impala is over there.'
'I think your right cas...'
'come on then! we have to go see if deans there!'

all three frantically ran towards the speck in the distance, arriving not ten minutes later. silently, they walked to the side of the impala, and peered inside.

dean was sat in the drivers seat, head on the steering wheel, muttering to himself.
'my fault. I fucking ruined his life again...why didn't I just stay alone? why? what the fuck is wrong with me?'

'oh...I remember this. well, I remember what happened before this. just after I got back into hunting, me and dean had a massive argument...I left him. I didn't think he would have been so...so upset.'
'sam you couldn't have known. deans not here though, so we have to keep moving.'
'Charlie's right sam, you didn't know what dean was going through. we need to hurry...we have to find dean.'

the three set off walking, not knowing what they were doing or where they were going. suddenly, cas keeled over and knelt on the ground, his teeth clenched and arms wrapped around his waist.

'cas? cas?! what's wrong?'
'something...I think deans distressed. I'm getting an overload of emotions from him...we must be closer than we thought.'
'here, lean on me cas. we're gonna find dean, don't worry...we'll find him.'

~deans POV~

the stench of blood filled deans nose. he groaned and rolled over onto his side, immediately retching when his eyes darted over the sight beside him.

1, 2, 3, 4...

sam, cas, Charlie, and Bobby.

strung up from the ceiling, arms above their heads and legs hanging limply.

'Sam?! cas?! guys?! Charlie? Bobby?'

dean frantically scrambled to his feet and searched for something he could use to cut them down with.

'dean...please...stop...'
' cas? cas?! how did this happen? who did this to you?'

dean raced towards cas' bloodied body, but stopped abruptly when he saw cas flinch.

'dean, please...I can bring them back...just..stop..please.'
'no...no...'

dean spun around to see a huge mirror mounted on the wall behind him, and he felt tears well up in his eyes as he saw his reflection.

he was dressed in full black, almost identical to Crowley. his clothing was completely stained with blood, some was even smeared over his face. his hands were stained dark red.

his eyes gleamed, sunken and black, void of any expression or meaning.

'cas? cas...did I do this?'
'dean, please stop. what you've become...you can change. you can stop...please.'

dean looked at cas' blood stained face, and his heart clenched painfully as he saw the tear tracks that lined the Angels cheeks.

he had done this to cas. he had made an angel...a warrior of God, cry.

he had tortured and killed the only family cas had left, and made him watch.

he had taken almost all of the Angels grace, leaving him practically helpless.
he had deliberately left cas defenceless...

dean looked up at the Angels tear stained face again, and fell to his knees, desperately clawing at his own legs and arms in the hope to make himself feel similar pain to what he had made the others feel.

'dean...'

dean watched as cas took his final breath, he watched as cas' head fell forward limply mimicking sam, Charlie and Bobby.

'no, no, no...'

~sam, cas, Charlie POV~

the three woke up on the floor of a dimly lit room, shrouded in darkness.

'this is Bobby's house...I can't remember anything really bad happening here?'

just as sam finished that sentence, they heard shouting coming from downstairs.

'that's you and Bobby, sam...dean too...why is this one of deans nightmares?'
'I don't know...we have to go and look for dean. please, we have to hurry.'
'okay cas...okay. come on sam.'

the two hunters and the Angel quickly walked down the stairs and raced to the living room, where they saw Bobby and sam talking, and dean yelling.

'cas wouldn't do that!'
'dean, you have to consider the possibility that cas isn't telling us the truth.'
'FOR FUCKS SAKE SAM, CAS WOULDN'T DO THAT!'

'I believe this is the argument you, dean and Bobby had when you were questioning my loyalty...dean refused to believe that I was double crossing you...'
'cas, it's okay. it's forgiven, trust me.'
'I just...I cannot forgive myself for behaving like that.'
'cas, dean chose to stay on your side. he always believed in you, and that's a hard thing to earn from dean...it's okay.'
'thank you sam.'
'sorry to ruin the heart to heart guys but we have to go...this dreams fading.'