Story Ideas

Idea #38

[ Feelings denied ]

I raised the cardboard with the model volcano on it and scanned it from side to side.

"Wow."

I made a little squeak and jolted in startle na muntik ko ng maitapon ang volcano namin. Clutching my fast beating heart, I turned and saw Zach.

"Sorry," he said, wincing

Ang lalim pala ng boses niya compared to all the boys in our batch. It was incomparable. His voice was kind of husky and deep. Para siyang mangseseduce kapag magsalita siya in a low tone. Nakakaturn-on.

Napailing nalang ako.

Ano ba tong iniisip ko?

"S'alright," I said, placing the cardboard on top of my desk again and fixing it's sides. "Ano ba ang kailangan mo?"

"Nothing. Tayong dalawa lang kasi ang naiwan dito sa room. My friends didn't wait for me rin eh."

I looked at him. He was leaning on the desk beside me with his arms crossed while he had his eyes stuck on our model volcano. Ngayon ko nga lang rin na realize na ang dami niya palang pinagbago. He was so scrawny back then. Ngayon, medyo okay na yung built niya. May muscles na siya and he looks fit rin.

"Ah," I nodded my head and started shaping a small piece of green clay into a small hilly island.

Tahimik kami for awhile. He stood there, just watching while I worked on our activity. I liked the quietness, until he spoke again and ruined the silence.

"Can I ask you something?" tanong niya.

I rolled my eyes. "You're already asking."

"Maldita." he mumbled to himself.

Tumingin ako sakanya with a brow raised. "May sinasabi ka?"

He shook his head. "Sabi ko, ba't ba iniiwasan mo ako?"

I gave him a questioning look bago ko ibinalik ang atensyon ko sa ginagawa kong volcano.

"Why are you avoiding me?" he asked again.

In-english niya lang tanong niya eh.

"I'm not."

"You are," he stated. "Ako lang ata ang hindi mo kinakausap sa buong batch natin."

Tumaas nanaman ang kilay ko. What is he talking about?

"Am I not talking to you now?"

He heaved a deep sigh and chuckled at my question. May nakakatawa ba sa sinabi ko? Totoo naman ang sinabi ko diba? What's so funny about it?

"Ang complicated mong kausap." He said.

"And you're weird." Sabat ko naman.

At that, he laughed. "You never change, do you?"

"People change."

"I don't."

I snorted. "Yeah, you do."

We didn't talk for a while as I continued making the volcano. For the first time, I didn't feel awkward talking to him. When our classmates began entering the classroom, he straightened up atsaka siya lumakad papunta sa likuran ko.

I caught a wiff of his smell. Shems. Ang bango ng pabango niya. I wonder kung anong brand ang ginagamit niya? It's far more better than the ones my brothers use. Masyadong strong kasi ang kila kuya. Ang sakanya, mild lang. Hindi siya masakit sa ilong. Ang sarap amuyin.

"Thanks for talking to me," he told me, tapping my shoulder.

"Yep. No prob." I waved a hand dismissively atsaka pinagpatuloy ang ginagawa ko.

Something inside me is like telling me that it wanted to talk to him more pa. Which is weird if you ask me. Never in a million years na gusto ko pang makausap si Zach. Never. Ngayon lang siguro since wala akong makakausap ngayon and lahat ng mga kaibigan ko nandun sa Canteen.

Pasimple akong lumingon sa direksyon ni Zach. He was by the door, laughing at some kind of joke Andrei had said. And then I came into my senses and mentally slapped myself. I took in a deep breathe and shook my head.

What the hell am I doing?

Why am I looking at him? Porket nag-usap lang kami at naamoy ko ang kanyang cologne, titignan ko na siya? Gosh, it's so wrong. It's so wrong in soooo many ways.

Get your shit together, (name).

Hindi ka pwedeng magkagusto rin sa lalaking iyan.

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A/N: It's been a while... HI! :D