All My Stars

*Chapter 16*

"Is it beautiful?" Her eyes were so sad that Harry couldn't answer for a moment. He cleared his throat and nodded. It was beautiful but how would anyone know that without loving someone and have them love you back? Hermione started to put her books in her bag. "We should both get to bed." Hermione suggested. He nodded again. They were the last two people in the common room. Hermione walked away and Harry pulled one of knees to his chest. He sat there quietly, watching the last bit of fire diminish to black-and-white ash and the smoke float up into nothingness. Eventually the weight of little sleep and staying up too late started to get to Harry, he stood and walked slowly to his room. In the dark, he changed into mismatched pajamas and crawled into bed. But laying in his bed, he couldn't sleep. His mind kept turning and bringing every memory Harry wanted to forget. They all floated through Harry's mind. He could feel his heart beating in his chest but he felt like he was dying. His breathing was shallow and eyes began to burn and he was thankful for the darkness and late time. All his friends were sleeping and didn't need to see him break down. He pulled his pillow to his chest and tried to hold himself together.

What's wrong? Severus suddenly asked. Feeling him there made Harry's cheeks turn red. This was not something he wanted to share with everyone.
Late night thoughts. I'm fine. Harry tried to reassure Severus but it didn't work.
Do you want to come down here with me?
Harry didn't bother to answer. He got up and found his cloak and made his way down to the dungeon. As he approached the door, it opened.

Harry found Severus in his bed, shirtless and waiting for Harry. Sev pulled the blanket back and patted the spot next to him, inviting Harry to join him. Harry walked over and sat next to Severus. Sev pulled Harry close and wrapped both his arms around him. Harry laid his head against Sev's chest and listened to his heart beat. Harry was content to just lay there. He was already feeling better. Sev's hand was laying on Harry's lower back. He slid his hand under his shirt, making Harry shiver. Sev's hand was cold as it laid against his back. Severus ran his hand down Harry's side. Harry laughed quietly and Sev smiled. "I love your smile." Harry whispered looking up at him. Severus leaned down to kiss him. Harry pulled himself up and straddled him. Harry felt Sev's hands grab his hips. Harry let his own hands trail down Sev's chest. Harry moaned quietly into the kiss. Although the sound turned Severus on, he pulled away. Harry pouted. "Not tonight." Severus told him. He pulled Harry off his lap and sat him next to him.

Harry wanted to argue but he was tired and content with just being next to Severus. He fell asleep. Severus watched him sleep. His breath fanning over his chest. I could get used to this. He thought before drifting off to sleep.

Harry woke up and checked the watch on his wrist. It was only 6am. He was glad he woke so early. It gave him time to get back to the dormitories before anyone else woke up. He started to get up when arms wrapped tightly around his waist. "Where are you going?" Sev asked. His voice was all gravelly and sexy, making Harry lay right back down. "I have to get back before someone notices." Harry explained. He didn't attempt to get back up.
"Its Saturday. They won't notice for hours. If they do, tell them you have morning detention." Severus had a point. Harry stayed there. He even drifted back to sleep for a few more hours. When he woke up for the second time, it was 8 o'clock and he was alone. He could hear the shower running. Harry smiled and thought about walking in there and getting in the shower with him. It seemed like a good idea but he didn't want his first time with Sev to be in a shower. So he waited a few minutes until Sev came out of the bathroom. He had a towel wrapped around his waist and Harry grinned at him. "I wouldn't mind waking up to this every day." Harry told him. Severus rolled his eyes but Harry saw him smile. "I told an house elf to get your clothes. You can shower and go show everyone you're alive."

Harry could think of a few other things to do beside shower, but he did take a shower. After getting dressed and brushing his teeth, he kissed Severus who had put on clothes. "I like you better in a towel." Harry informed him.
"What will I do with you?" Severus sighed. It was a rhetorical question but Harry had to answer.
"I'm sure you can think of something." Harry grinned. Severus shook his head once again.
"Go." He kissed Harry's forehead. "I love you."
"I love you too." Harry replied. He turned and made his way to breakfast.
"Where were you?" Ron asked as soon as Harry sat down.
"Detention." Harry didn't give a better explanation. He started eating and changed the conversation and soon his late arrival went unnoticed.

After breakfast, his friends got ready to go to Hogsmeade. Harry was going to go but Remus wanted him to stay and catch up. There would be more trips so Harry wasn't concerned about missing this one. After he walked Ron and Hermione to the entrance hall, Harry made his way to Remus's room. Dumbledore gave him his own chambers. Harry was kind of happy Remus was here. With Sirius gone, Remus was like the only 'family' he had left. (Besides Severus of course.)

When Harry got to Remus's, there was already tea. Harry comes in and sits in a chair that Remus points at. He's handed a cup of tea and Remus sits across from him.
"How are you today?" Remus asks.
Harry was great. Amazing. Better than he had been for days. Sev did that to him. "I'm fine." Harry decided to say. "How are you? With all the moving?" Harry asked, to be polite but he could tell where this conversation would, inevitably, go.

After telling Harry that everything was good Remus sighed and set his tea cup down. "How much time do you spend with Severus now that you're at Hogwarts?"
Harry thought about it. He's been in school for about a month now. He was busy a lot. He didn't see Severus much outside of class. Once a week or something like that.
After a few moments of thinking, Harry shrugged. "I dunno. I see him sometimes. Sometimes I don't."
Remus nodded and he seemed to be struggling to say something. "I want to supervise some of your meetings." Remus said. "I just want to see how you guys are together."
Harry raised an eyebrow at this. "What do you think we do?" Harry tried not to sound defensive. Remus sighed and tried to explain but every sentence made it worse. "Harry." Remus said after their conversation turned into a heated argument. "Its not because I don't trust you or Severus. That's not it. You are sixteen and this is your first serious relationship. I just want to see if there is a need to make rules. I'm just trying to do the right thing." Remus sounded sincere and it made Harry feel bad about yelling. Harry huffed and agreed to let Remus sit in on one of their meetings.

Harry was busy the next week. The week led into October and the change in weather started to affect the students. The colder it became the more stress there seemed to be. They couldn't help but feel down when everyday was an overcast.

About a week after Remus and Harry talked, Harry finally had time to spend with Severus. It was Sunday and they decided to spend the day together. It didn't matter that Remus was there. They missed each other. Being together was all that mattered.

A/N: And I updated today. I didn't think I would but it happened. After everything in my life calms a bit, I'm hoping to update regularly^-^