Dealing with the miscarriage was hard. We decided to both take some time off. Nobody really understood that. They got that we were sad and grieving. It was extremely hard to be around everyone. I was happy around everyone, and they were our family, but it's hard. We spent so much time at home. It was hard for us to even go out. It didn't feel right.
Matt took a lot of time off work. He took 6 months off. We weren't okay. This loss hit us hard. It wasn't easy for any of us, as expected. It really changed us. Matt knew how much time he was going to take off. We needed time. In that time we got to get out of Chicago. We traveled, and it was fun for a while. We would go all over. It was like having a new home every week. We did this for a while.
I didn't know what I was going to do yet. It's been two years and it's been better. Every day gets better. I have learned to manage my feelings well. I've grieved. I don't know what i'm going to do now. I don't know when or if I'm going back to work. I love my job and wouldn't trade it for anything, but it's hard. I know everyone at 51. When I go back everyone will ask questions. I've really stepped back and I just have to find that next step.
I laid in bed with Matt. I looked at him " what am I going to do..?" He looked at me " two years.. wow!" I looked at him " I know... I think I should go back to work.. but.. I don't know if I can.." Matt looked at me " If you want to go back to work.. do it! I got you!" I looked at him " It's defiantly... something to think about." He kissed me " you think about it.."
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FanfictionThe next chapter beyond More than a family. 3 years have passed, Gabby and Matt are finally feeling like they have their life back. Things are difficult for them. They have taken time off from work and even stepped away from Chicago. Things are def...
