Golden haze,
Another morning feels like yesterday.
End of may..
Now you're gone and there's still bills to pay.
And you know it doesn't help to make believe, you're sitting next to me.
It doesn't help, to make believe that you are right behind me
Saying it's okay.
Longer days,
More time to sit and watch the pendulum sway.
In quiet rage I'm staring at this empty notebook page.
In times like these you feel like you are done with feeling,
You feel you want to stop the pain from healing
Because you feel like you're the only one,
Who's ever felt this way.
Some days in a daze, there's brighter days.
Funny how the feeling never stays,
But I know I'll have to come to terms when I'm awake,
Thinking about you is the icing on the cake.
Makes me realize the fact you're gone for good for goodness sake.
Golden haze, another morning feels like yesterday.
End of may, a year is gone and I still feel this way,
When we meet again, I'll ask you how you're doing
And you'll say fine and ask me how I'm doing
And then I'll lie and I'll say ordinary, It's just an ordinary day.
It's just an ordinary day
It's just an ordinary day
HARRY STYLES
It's been a month. A month of emptiness and lonesome days. Nothing tasted right, everything bland and boring. I cried most of the time, tried getting a hold of Carli was something that I did almost every hour. To my horror, one day I called her and the machine told me that she had disconnected the number. She hasn't even answered my emails.
But honestly, I deserve it. I deserve everything that life throws at me. I'm so fricking mad at myself but what can I do if Carli wont even talk to me? I've tried, but when does it need to stop? I needed her, Carli was-- still is-- my everything. I adore Carli with every inch of my body. But I did something horrible, something that I don't even want to talk about. I knew I messed up, hell, it was the most horrific thing I have ever done in my entire life. But will Carli forgive me? It seems like she wont, so what should I do?
I had things planned and I had to ruin everything. We were going to get married. We were going to have another baby when the time came. We were going to grow old together and rock in rocking chairs with our wrinkled hands clasped together. But that wont happen now. What will happen is I'll be that cranky old man who hates the world and everything in it because it reminds me of the love I had lost. I would cry myself to sleep every night and eat cold soup for dinner because I can't function enough to cook.
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Forgive Me (Color Me book 3 H.S) EDITING
FanfictionHarry and Carli are now settling down, trying to forget everything that has happened in the past. The two are strong, their relationship finally to the point of being serious . A new creation is coming into the world and it'll change Harry, for the...
