I speak loudly but never loudly enough
They say they can't hear me
I'm too quiet
Could I please speak up?
Absolutely not.
I can't go one night without being moved to hysterics
Not just tears
More than tears.
Not one night without loneliness
Without laughter
Without heat
Lack of heat
Cold.
Everything I do is a decision
Unless you push past me
If you push past me I will not think
I will not be rational
But I will still be quiet.
"Could you please speak up?"
Absolutely not.
I am quiet because I listen to you
I pay attention
I want to hear you
I care
So care right back at me
Listen to me
Pay attention.
You'll hear me
And you won't have to ask me to speak up.
Even though I won't.
