I wish I was an albatross
who flew forever
untargeted
unlimited
and could always go home
to someone.
Instead I'm just a person
who can only walk
and can only walk so far.
Who is isolated behind barriers
of a language I don't want to know.
Who is never liked enough to try.
Who doesn't get to go home.
I wish I was a little bird
who didn't have to worry about things.
Only how to eat
and how to find someone
and then how to care for someone
and then how to repeat.
Who didn't know how scary the world was
because its brain didn't have enough to realize.
I wish I didn't have to realize things like that.
I wish that life was easier on my own.
I wish I was an eagle
who soared across great landscapes
who was respected
who could fight off anyone.
I want to be loud and angry and in control
I want to be good at something
other than being good at nothing
and coming on too strong
and making people leave
but I don't know how to fix myself.
