I know I don't make sense
I just say things
I make them look nice
I don't think.
That's what I want people to do when I don't make sense.
But nobody wants to commit to understanding
nobody wants to take me seriously
or hear what I have to say.
As far as I know I'm not worth anything
because nobody seems to want to try
and that is so sad
and I'm sorry,
I'm sorry I'm not an open book
I'm sorry I take more effort than most people
I'm sorry I don't have anything to make that effort worthwhile,
or at least that is what the people around me seem to want me to know.
I'm sorry I can't change that.
Some people have treasure that you have to dig for,
that isn't just lying on the surface.
Some people have depth.
I have feelings,
this isn't all an act of science and regular mood swings and a want for attention.
I might not be able to get around those
but I have been told I am human
and we have feelings.
So, as my view of life goes back and forth between loneliness and solitude,
I will apologize to only myself
for wasting time trying to do the impossible
Time better spent spreading positive thoughts and inspiration,
baking cookies,
and eating them all myself.
Thank you.
