Forever and Always

Pasta

It's been 2 days since me and Niall kissed for the first fime of well beeing and we haven't do any contacts to each other. I feel weird, guilty but also somehow, i feel oddly happy. I mean, the kiss was genuinely amazing and perfect but i don't know. And i kept this words running around my head saying that i really like him, not like the fan situation but i like him as a normal person.

I haven't gone out from our house because i've watched the news and somehow, our kiss is all over the media. And everyone are apperently talking about it. And i do feel slightly embrassed in some sort of way but.. ugh

"Ems?" I squirted from my bed to see Carol is there with Zayn on the steps of my room.

"Yeah?" I smiled willingly at her while giving my best self.

"Uh.. He's here for you" She said. And just like that, the air in my room suddenly dissapeared. My voice hitched and my skin shivers just hearing his name. He's here.

"Tell him i'm asleep" I simply said while covering my self with the blanket again and look emptily with my blank eyes to my closet which is infront of me. Well not infront actually, but, ugh whatever, it doesn't matter anyways.

"Uh.. Could you give us a moment?" i hear Carol whisper to Zayn. And soon, the bed dipped deeper on my side, knowing Emily is sitting right now with her hand on my leg.

"Emily, please just go and talk to him" She smoothly says with pure concert written on her tone.

"What's there to talk about?" I blantly asks. I hear her sigh and that is also the time when she pull my blanket off, knowing she's getting annoyed by my childish actions.

"Emily, i really need you to get into your head, alright?" She sighs again. I let out a breath before sitting up with my arns crossed above my tummy.

"Look, i clearly know nothing about feelings or whatever that shit called is" She breathe out.

"But, i do know one thing about love" She said making a groan came out from my lips.

"No, Ems. Listen" She sternly says when i was about to open my lips.

"Look, you know i was.. I had a very awful past" She shuttered. I look up at her with full concern. This is the times when she's reallt serious about something. Cause Caroline Heart will never ever talks about her past easily, she never liked anyone talking about it not even herself.

"And.. You know how dreadful i am back then, i was.. I was a wreck, i was such a mess. And then, you came and you kinda.. Changed me" She whisper down her throat.

"You were the first reason why i changed, why i'm happy in the first place, and i owe you my whole life" She says in a bit cracked voice. I lick my lips when i started to feel my eyes a bit teary.

"And i owe you my life, my happines. I owe you for that happines you gave to me. So Emily, please" She whisper, taking my hand to hold.

"Go and talk to Niall. Not for me, not for him, but for yourself" She says again while a little whimper came out from my mouth.

"Emily, i know he'll be good to you, he'll make you happy, so just please, take this chance of beeing happy and go" She says squeezing my hand tightly. This is so weird, the girl with little bit of compassion of anyone else is talking about other happines to someone else. Odd? A bit yeah.

"Don't be afraid, Emily" She whispers.

I'm not afraid, Carol. I'm just thinking what might he pull me through if he broke me.

I sigh and bit my lip before nodding at her. "Fine, i'll be down in a minute"

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"Thank you for agreeing to come and have lunch with me" Niall says nervously while giving me his irish smile. I slowly nodded with a little smile and decided to open the menu and look at the foods. Ugh, whatever, i'll just go have pasta.