Forever and Always

You too?

Emily's POV

It has been 20 minutes since Niall left me with the greatest shock, and me and Luke hasn't been going anywhere. He kept calming me down bcause i couldn't stop crying.

What he said to me was so hurting. It was, unbelievible. Did he really think i was a gold digger when he first saw me? Am i really such a whore in his eyes? Am i really such a trash in his eyes?

No, of course not. He was just hurt.

My inner mind said. But, how could he even say such things to me? I know what i did wad bad and not fair for him but if we change our perspective, he once did it to me. He kissed Selena, and it hurted like hell. And, i didn't even kiss Luke. Damn it, why is this so complicated and why does it freaking hurts so much?

I don't know what hurts the most now.

Niall's words or the was he left me in pieces.

"Please don't cry anymore" Luke said, after he took a deep breath. He took my hand in his and squeezed it assuringly. I sighed as the tears kept falling down.

"It-just.. God" I cried again but this time, Luke hugged me from the side, making me cry even more.

"I know, i know. It'll pass soon, babe" Luke said, sighing deeply again.

"I promise" He whispered to my ear while i am still sobbing on his shouder, obviously soaking the hell of his black t-shirt. "I'm so sorry, this is all my fault" Luke sighed after i pulled away from his hug. I raised an eyebrow at him before shaking my head while whiping away the remaining tears on my cheeks.

"No, Luke-"

"Emily, just listen. It is my fault, Em. It is" He sighed at me before he bit his lip, looking down with pure sadness in his eyes.

I know what's he's about to say will NOT be good, i just know it.

"I'm the one who asked you to be friends with benefits"

"But it was when me and Niall broke up-"

"Yeah, but look where we ended up to, Em!" He shouted at me suddenly, making me to shut my mouth instantly.

"You're crying because of what i did. I'm the one who started all of this. Emily, i can't. I can't seeing you crying like this, it kills me" He sighed, standing up and looked down to me.

"Emily, you need to understand what i'm going to do is the best for the both of us, alright?" He said in a very serious tone.

And i know instantly what's he going to do, and i am not even 1% liking what's inside his mind.

"No, Luke-"

"I have to leave, Em"

"No, please Luke. You don't have to go-"

"I have to leave, Emily. I have to let you go to make you happy"

"No, it will not! I just lost Niall and i am not strong enough to lose you too!" I shouted, standing up, taking his hand in mine but he sighed. Not looking to my face.

"It's the best for the both of us, Em!" Luke shouted, looking at me with mixed feelings.

"How the hell could you possibly even know what's the best for the both of us?!" I shouted.

"Em, you didn't lose Niall, you never had. He loves you, Emily. He loves you till his death, he will understand and he will forgive you. And the two of you will be happy again, and i'll just be a distraction to your happiness. And all i ever wanted was your happiness" He said with a sigh to end it. The tears are already making their ways down on my face, again.