Forever and Always

Ending

Do you know that feeling when your riding a rollercoaster but then suddenly it stopped?

Yeah. That is precicely my heart is right now. It's him. It's his voice. The boy who i have missed for a month. The boy who has crushed me yet he still owns my heart. I take in a deep breath before slowly turning around. And yes, there he is. Standing with his charming smile. Black tux, his blonde hair nicely done, his hands inside his pockets and his blue eyes shining into me.

Looking at him right now, just makes my world goes up side down. In this time, all i want is to run to him and hug him with all of my heart but i know i can't.

"Hi, Em" He said with a little breath at the end. His eyes are starting to water.

"It's nice to finally see you again. I've missed you" He said again while i'm still standing like a fool.

"I've missed you, Em. Where have you been? God, you are so beautiful" He take a step towards me but i'm still just standing there with my eyes on him.

"Niall? What are you-what are you doing here?" I asked him, finally managing something to say. "The groom is my pal. I missed you, Emily. So much" He sighed. I bit my lip before looking down to the sand, avoiding his eye contact.

"Emily? I'm sorry..."

Here we go...

"I'm sorry about everything. I know you deserve someone much better than me. I did such bad things to you and i kept.. I'm just-I love you, Emily."

"Stop this, Niall" I shaked my head when the tears starting to fload in my eyes.

"I can't deal with this anymore. I've been okay the past month and i've tried my best no to cry once a day, so please... Don't talk about this" I said, looking at his eyes.

"I'm sorry" He sighed at me before nodding.

"Maybe we could just talk?" Niall asked, i let out a sigh before nodding. "I-um.. What are you doing here?" He asked while i turned around, not wanting to see his eyes anymore. "Gisele invited me here" I said, lookinh straightly to the moon. I felt Niall's presence next to me but i just keep it cool. "Oh, you guys are friends?" He asked, and god his eyes are just stuck on me.

"Not exactly. I came to visit the shop and she was one of the brides and she said she's my fan so she invited me. And of course i said yes, but if i knew you were here. I probably wouldn't" I said straightfuly, not caring if i hurt him with my words. I mean, he hurt me much more.

"Okay" He sighed before clearing his throat. "I-uh.. I was in a coma a month ago" I just nodded.

"You knew?" He raised his eyebrows and i just nodded. "You were all over the place" I shrugged, looking anywhere else besides him. "Wh-why didn't you visit me? I was hoping it might be you, the one i saw first when i woke up, but you never came" I already can sense the hurt in his tone.

Don't get fooled, Emily.

"I was just... I'm not ready" I sighed, shaking my head before closing my eyes as thd cold came in contact with my skin again.

"Not ready to meet me?" He asked. And i just nodded. It was silence after that, none of us said a word. I have billions of questions running in my head for him but no, it is my task now to get away as far as possible from him.

"I mean, even though i didn't come, you are still fine. I mean, you become more energetic in those videos of you on the concerts" I shrugged, hugging myself tighter with my arms.

"Those are... Yeah whatever" He sighed frustatedly before running his hand to his blonde hair.

"I was-uh... I didn't remember what happend, the guys said i was chasing after you after that... Um... Day" I cringed when he mentioned that day. The day that i saw him and with those skanks. I take in a deep breath before biting my lip as those memories of him with those skanks came into me. Great. Just fucking great.