Questioning My Sanity

Chapter Thirteen

Mia's pov

I cried and dropped the blade on the ground blood falling from the blade and I looked down at my blood filled arm and I washed it off and got a wash cloth and pressed on it and turned off the water and sat leaning against the door. My life flashed upon my eyes all the good times.

"Think about it Mia if you married a goat they would throw grass at your wedding"

I ended up hitting Jackson in the face with a pillow and stopped jumping on my bed and smiled "It's christmas" "we know"

A guy came up to me who had a hood on and sunglasses weirdly and he said "hey what are you doing outside alone?" He asked me "uh I'm just waiting for this dance to end" I said to him "why?" He asked me confused probably wondering why I came "because my friends have dates and I had to go already buying the stuff before" "then at least dance once" he said handing out his hand and I took it not caring and I could hear walking in a winter wonderland but we danced and didn't know each others name and I didn't know what he looked like either. We continued dancing til the dance let out and people ran out and I lost him to the crowd of people then went home never telling a soul.

All the bad times..

"You still scared of everything aren't you. Well no one is here for you or cares enough so stay the hell away from everyone and we went have a problem" Cece said and Harper pushed me to the ground and I fell my money falling from my cardigan pocket and before I could reach it from my leg hurting so badly Cece grabbed the money

"Guys are you ever going to actually hang out with me" shyly to them and Harper snapped "We are now" "plus I've been waiting since 1st grade" they were infuriated and I said "I don't mean it in that way!! You guys keep on leaving me to go with them" we were in the sidewalk that goes around a park and they scoffed and left and I sighed not understanding.

I got up and opened the door not before looking in the mirror to see my red and puffy eyes, tear stained cheeks and my hair that was mismatched and frizzy. My dad hugged me and I hugged him back and seconds later my friends came in the door and we talked and I apologized for almost doing that and told them how I was grounded and they explained there tear filled mornings.

I got ungrounded since it was because of traffic. We all went to a park and walked thinking about everything. "So you guys are gonna get married and have babies so I'll be the god mother or else I'll sue you" I told them laughing and they laughed along with me and I could see Ceces blush

The next day I went to school and saw the blonde loser named Brendan, I hate him I thought he left. The teacher did a seat change in first quickly. I sat next to stupid Jimmy and Garret/Brendans old friend sat next to jimmy and guess what there was one free seat.. "Sit next to Mia,Mia rai" she started and he walked over and sat next to me and she looked puzzled and said were doing table work with rocks so we had a white box of rocks and right away jimmy opened it and I stayed quiet. We observed rocks and wrote down things silently when we're suppose to be talking but I'm definitely not talking first. Practically Jimmy is having a conversation with himself. "So what did you guys put down for the white rock?" He asked and I mumbled "quartz" "yeah what did you get for that?" He asked and I handed him my notebook not caring if he could read it or not. "So anyone else?" He asked "why won't you guys talk to me?" Brendan said confused "I'm trying t-" Jimmy started "No Mia and Garret" he said "because I don't want to" I said blankly snatching my red Agrilculture notebook from Jimmy and put it away saying the bell was going to ring in a minute and when it did I left quickly avoiding further conversation.

I sat next to of Chase and Latteboy in second and I just came in and sat down leaning my head over my desk so no one could see because it was only one class but I was tired...

"Get up" latte boy said shaking me and I got up "What was the Aztecs trade" Ms.Henderson asked me and I said "It's any item they could find that equaled up like a armor set for a heard of animals or something" I said easily shrugging "That's correct but please stay awake next time" she said and I nodded and minutes later the bell rang and latte boy left. "Why did you fall asleep?" He asked me "Because first period a kid from elementary to middle of 6 grade came back and he drove me crazy and apparently still does" I told him sighing "Just take a breath and remember he's not in this class" he said smiling a reasurring smile and I smiled back happy that he's not..

"Brendan go sit next to Mia if yo-" Ms.Henderson started and he sat next to me and I looked at Chase for help and he mouthed trade and I nodded wide eyed and traded seats so Chase had to sit next to him. He automatically slipped his arm around me and I wanted to laugh saying he never did that, he probably thinks he has a crush on me, he should know now if he did I would straight out refuse. We got a paper on Grammer corrections and I was surprised that he was in honors I mean he's less smarter than Jimmy and that's saying alot saying all the times that he said random annoying stuff and screamed like a little girl I've known he existed since 6 but didn't know him personally and sadly I now know. "Really Mia I thought we were friends since elemtury?" He told me and I shook my head no, saying from all the times he acted like a rabbib pack animal, well I'll pass. "You were rude and annoying" I said to him "Please don't talk to go my girlfriend at all, thanks" he said and turned to his work and started doing it with his arm not around me anymore "So you have your weak boyfriend to protect you from nothing what a fucking loser" he said in a hushed whisper and I got angry that I stood up and went to Ms.Henderson "I had a huge problem with Brendan so can the seats change?" I asked her and she nodded and called him up and said "okay your going to sit next to..."