Questioning My Sanity

Chapter Twenty

I walked into her house and I automatically heard the room explode in laughter and they all were staring at the four of us and it stopped when she walked over smirking. I groaned "So look who decided to come" "We're here because everyone's invited" Harper said shrugging

(Diana is suppose to be Harper sorry for mistakes <3)

"Yeah but I didn't expect you losers to show up" she said with her hands on her hips. "Whatever.." Harper said not caring and I didn't say a thing "so you mutes gonna say anything?" She said snappily "Anything" I said shrugging claiming a few laughs. "Haha very funny" she said back with a scowl on her face, I was in control of the crowd which is awesome. "Never said it was" I said snapping time "I think we should go" Chase whispered "You should listen to him and leave" "No" I said blankly getting some wide stares and I didn't flinch either did she. "What did you say" she snapped and Dylan said "Just shut up and stop being so dramatic" "Stop being wimps" she said acting all tough "How am I a wimp saying I'm still here" I said "Your acting like a baby by cowarding away from me" she said smirking and her arms crossed. "Yet again how are we cowards, were still here and haven't flinched under your stare." Harper said with a eye brow raised "Control your women" Cece smirked at us and I wanted to claw her eyes out. "Just leave while you can" she said smirking "come on" Chase whispered and when I didn't make vet he took me by my wrist to the outside where flowers were blooming and teenage love was blossoming. "Why did you do that?" I asked him confused "Why did you stay?" He asked me confused "I stayed because I'm not a wuss" I said plainly "We could of saved all this trouble and humiliation" he said at me kinda rudely. "So I'm humiliating" I snapped at him pissed "No I-" "You know save it" I said and walked away as he called my name, he didn't follow me or even call me anymore the further I got the more the sound drained out and I just walked home where I was left alone to contemplate what honestly happened.

Harpers pov

I sat in his lap looking up at the stars, he wore his silver square eearings that I love and I smiled. He was the thing I needed in life. Life may be hard but in the end you can fail but your heart will always lead you somewhere. Either it be a good or bad somewhere, it's somewhere you can stay until your safe in the arms of the one you love...

I bet if Mia was here right now she would say something about tongue twister. "I love you Harper" he said to me and moved my hair behind my ear and I whispered "I love you too, Dylan" as I fell asleep, saying I love you for the first time, and meaning it.

Ceces pov

I sat alone in my living room after the after party cleaning up. I honestly regret what I did to Jackson, I care about him too much to lose the relationship we created. I want him back, I waited 7 years for him to finially say 'be my girlfriend'. I messed up badly but I also don't regret it. I like them both, I've been told it's okay to have 2 crushes or even 4. I like them both alot, god this is like teen twilight. I wanted to have both of them as my Valentines and boyfriends but now they will never be mine. I just wish I could they both could be mine. I threw away a empty pizza plate with a sigh. I saw Flora walk in smirking "So bestie what are we doing today" "Oh were doing something no one would ever expect" I said with a forever lasting smirk

Mia's pov

I sat in front of my tv watching full house and it didn't feel the same and I then tried to write texts to him but earsing it having my blood stream getting messed up from all my different poses on my couch. My alarm went off for putting on my face stuff. I went into the bathroom and saw frizzy hair,tear filled puffy eyes, tear stained cheeks, then I looked empty like nothing mattered and I just lost two people who meant so much to me. I guess the fact that I never do things right deserved a cut right? I opened my drawer and got it out until it created a slice in my skin in a spot you would never see it. I always hurt people, another cut near the first, I'm useless, which deserved another cut. I heard my door bell ring and I washed off my hand and went down stairs and opened my front door to see my dad and I made suttle conversation, he didn't notice. I went to my room locked my door and sat on my bed quietly looking at the ceiling. I didn't cry much anymore, I just thought deeply, it doesn't mean that I'm not, it's the fact I feel purely numb. I did cry earlier to get it out for once but I didn't now. I started at my ceiling just being a flat ceiling. All I was to anyone was a joke, pathetic one at that. I never have felt loved. I've only felt tolerable that's it, even with a boyfriend who know what he thinks of me now, the empty void in my heart hasn't filled as much as I try to hide it its escaping me to show how lonely I really am.