PURSUIT OF DESTINY (OnGoing)

Pursuit of Destiny - Just Your Friend

Jaye's POV

YES. I lied to her. I told her I was going somewhere when in fact I'm going out with Jasmine. I lied to her about Jasmine. I liked Jasmine since the day I first met her. I liked her and now we're dating. Can you believe it? I'm dating one of the most popular girl in school. Even I can't believe it. Jasmine is mysterious, I can't seem to read her but she told me she like me, too, so.

I don't even know if it's true.
Well, as for me, I just want to escape. Escape from Naddie. This is the best thing to do, I thought. I think I'm falling for Naddie but I don't think it will be reciprocated. I know her. I know her type, and I'm not that kinda guy she looks for. It hurts! Yes! What the hell? I just can't afford to loss her. I don't want to ruin our friendship, either. It's the only thing that we have. I don't want to take the risk of admitting my feelings for her. But I couldn't go on with our friendship with me feeling like this either. What should I do? Just the think of avoiding her is killing me inside. It pained me not be able to be near her, to talk to her. Why do I have to feel this for her? I should have guarded my heart. I should have stopped this feeling since it started. I should have but I couldn't help it. Man, I'm in love with her. I'm in love with Naddie Alexis Reid. Tears started falling from my eyes, I love the girl but I just don't have the courage to tell her. Not just yet.

I'm not playing Jasmine, she knows it. In fact, she's the one offered to be my girlfriend for me to escape. How kind of her, right? I know it's not right and it'll not be but I don't have a choice. I'm choosing to avoid her at the moment. Until I can still bear it.

Jasmine has been good to me. I don't know her motive of getting close to me, yet. I'll know in time. I asked her one time.

"Jasmine, why are you being kind to me?", see, my speech has become better. I think I built my confidence being with the two of most confident girls in the campus. Guys must be jealous of me.

"What?", she seems surprised. Why would she be? Unless she's hiding something or am I just being paranoid.

"Why are you so kind to me?", I asked her again.

"Why?", why does she have to repeat.

"Yes. Why?"

"Why not? I mean, I don't see anything wrong with me being kind to you, do you?", her eyes is disturbed or that's what I saw.

"No. No, sorry for that stupid question. It's just so unusual in my case. I never had close friends before and I was a victim of bullying at our school. So, it got me thinking if why would you choose to be close to me? I don't mean anything about it though.", I told her.

"Jaye, don't think too much. Okay? Don't stress your mind with futile thoughts.", she said.

"Ok. Thank you, Jasmine. So much", I told her, sincerely.

"Anytime Jaye.", she smiled.

Now, we are officially dating but not because we love each other but because of me wanting to escape from myself. I finally believed that the greatest enemy you could ever have is yourself. I chose to pretend someone that I'm not. I chose to be with someone I'm not myself. Jasmine is my friend but I think I will never be at ease with everyone except for Naddie.

Naddie is especial. She brings out the best in me. She changed me. She is exceptional! I mean, she's weird at times but I don't have any complains about it. She always pokes me, always punching me! She laughs at my jokes! She's perfectly imperfect. I don't know but maybe that's what love can do, you can see all the negative things about the person but you still love her like she's perfect. I missed her. God, how I missed her.