PURSUIT OF DESTINY (OnGoing)

Pursuit of Destiny - Okay

NADDIE'S POV

It's been two weeks since that pageant and today's December 15. I haven't heard of Jaye for two weeks, too. I never had a chance to talk to him after the pageant because he's been so occupied. It's not that we don't meet at school, it's just that, he's different, again. He never talked to me. He make me feel like my existence is not occuring to him, in short, he's been avoiding me for some reasons I don't know. I didn't do anything just to make him hate me, if he really hates me because by the way he looks at me, he's been hiding something. I've been planning to talk to him, to sort things out, but he's just too distant to reach.

I won that pageant, but I decided not to take the price, of having to be featured on TV because of what Jonathan has done.

When the pageant was finished, I walked to the backstage but I didn't know Jonathan was following me.

"Naddie!", he said and hugged me tight. I was surprised of the way he acted.

"Nathan, what are you doing here?", he shouldn't be here because he's one of the judges. I don't want people telling that I won just because I knew one of the judges.

"What? I just want to congratulate you Naddie, you were amazing!", he exclaimed.

"Thank you,  Jonathan", I smiled at him but I haven't been able to move away when he hurriedly lean on my face and put his lips on mine. I froze at first, but I immediately regain my composure and pushed him hard.

"Nathan! What did you do?", I asked him, tears on my eyes are about to fall.

"Sorry Naddie, I just couldn't help it. I love you", be said without even hesitating.

"What?", I'm shouting.

"I love you Naddie,  I never admited before because you were too young then, but I think you're now ready. I have love you for a long time now.

"What are you saying Jonathan? I don't understand any of this. I treated you as my brother but you betrayed me. I hate you!"

"Naddie, please calm done. I'm sorry if I rushed. I'm sorry of what I've done. Please, forgive me?"

"Not today Jonathan. Bye. One thing, I'm not going to take the price anymore. I'm sorry."

Since then, I haven't contacted Jonathan. I don't hate him, but I need space from him. All those years I thought he also sees me as his sister, but I was wrong. I felt violated and betrayed.

I missed Jaye. I missed him so much.

Today's the last day before the Christmas vacation. I hope I would be able to talk to Jaye today, because I couldn't take not having to talk with him or not having to be him anymore.

I started preparing to school. Put on my favorite pair of shoes and clothing and went to school.

----------------

I was at the hall and in a hurry cause one minute more and I'm gonna be late. Maybe because I was too fast and maybe my head is looking down that I haven't notice that someone is walking through me.

"I'm sorry", that voice, I missed it.

I looked up and he was so surprised to see me.

"Jaye"

"Naddie"

Silence. Silence. Silence.

Is it weird? It is weird.

When you two just look in each others eyes and seems like you understand each other.
If this a staring contest then, I'd definitely gonna lose.

But what he did shocked me.

He grabbed me from the back, pulled me in close proximity with him and kissed me so deeply. It's like he's been so dry and couldn't get enough of me, he's searching for more passion. I don't know what to do cause I froze of the moment.

Jaye is kissing me! He's passionately kissing me.

At last my eyes shut and savor the moment. I don't even know of this is right. Man, he's my bestfriend. I don't care anymore, if everyone think this is a crime then so be it, I'll be the grateful suspect of this beautiful crime.

I kissed him back.

Deep.

Passionate.

Hungry.

I want him to feel that he's love. God, why did I realized this just now? Why?

I love this guy. I love him so much my life wouldn't be a life without him.

"Jaye", I said in between the 'Kiss'

He stopped.

It seems like he's also surprised of what he did.

"Naddie, I'm sorry"

"Oh my goodness, what did I do? Please don't get mad. Please"

"Why are you apologizing Jaye. It's insulting."

"That's not what I meant. I mean, i don't know. It's just that I love you Naddie. I have been loving you for so long now I'm so coward to admit it. I love you and I hate myself because I broke my rule. I hate my self for allowing things to happen. I didn't mean to. I hate myself for ignoring you the past days, it's been the most difficult days of my life. Naddie, I love you because when I'm with you, I'm more myself. I love you because you've accepted my flaws. I love you because you've changed me. I'm better now because of you. You don't have the slightest idea how you transform my life into something beautiful. You're an angel Naddie and I will always thank God for giving you to me."

I was so shocked of his revelation. I couldn't speak. I just look at him, teary-eyed eyed.

That's a hell of a speech.

"Please say something. Please. Say that you love me too. Say that.. "

"I love you"

"What?"

"You heard it"

"Can you say it again?"

"No"

"Why not? Please say it again"

"I'm not gonna say it again"

"Hey that's foul, you should have let me speak first before you spoke"

"not my fault haha"

"Naddie!"

"What?"

"I
Love
You. "

"Okay"

"Okay?"

"Okay"