PURSUIT OF DESTINY (OnGoing)

Pursuit of Destiny - Let Go and Live Again

Jaye's POV

It still feels like I'm on cloud nine since the day Naddie and I got together. Every day being with her is filled with love. I love her to bits. I fall in love with her smile, with her smell, with the way she talks, the way she acts, the way she flips her hair, the way she gets mad at times, the way she demands, the way she gets angry, the way she complains, as long as I'm with her, I couldn't ask for more. She is a blessing and I will always see her as a great blessing in my life. I mean, she made me the person that I am today. She made me the best person that I never had. She made my life complete. She made me the happiest man alive. She is my everything and today we're  already celebrating our first anniversary as a couple. Can you just imagine how time flies? The girl of my dreams has been with me for a year now. I wonder what I did in the past to deserve such.

I was startled when my phone started ringing. I didn't realized, I was reminiscing and thinking about the past for about an hour since I woke up a while ago. I searched for where my phone is and find it under my pillow, I immediately took it and see what's on the register.

Love Calling...

I smiled, took a deep breath and answered it.

"Hi love! Good morning!", I answered excitedly.

"Good morning, too love! Happy 1st Anniversary!", she said.

"Love! Take it back! Take back what you've said. I want to be the first to say it", I said in a frowning tone.

She just laughed. Oh how I love her laugh.

"I won't take it back! Happy Anniversary love. You know I love you, right? Many times I held back my feelings for you but I couldn't help but to fall for you over and over again cause the more I suppress it, the more it wants to explode"

"Stop it love, I don't want to cry. Stop it or else I will come running to you in a minute! Hahaha. Thanks love. I love you. I love you. I love you. God, I love you so much. I will see you later tonight,  okay? 7 pm at the Grand Square."

"At the Grand Square? Why? "

"That's supposed to be a surprise", I said smiling.

"Sorry love, I cannot."

"Why love?"

"Just kidding. Cheer up! I will see you later my love"

"Yas. I thought you were serious a while ago. See you baby. I love you so much and Happy Anniversary". I couldn't stop smiling while I bid goodbye to her.

We will meet at the grand square today. I was so nervous, I don't know why. Maybe I'm a little bit on edge cause I'm going to propose to her today. I'm gonna asked the girl I love so much to spend the rest of her life with me. Is that too much to ask? Is it?

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What I thought to be a surprise for her turned out to be my own surprise. Naddie did not make it. Naddie did not appear. I could not reached here for some reason, I do not know. I kept calling her but it always says that the register is out of reach. Being in a relationship for a year, I just realized that I never happen to to go to her house, or to meet her family. What should I do? I'm having mix of emotions. I feel nervous, on edge, furious, worried and bewildered. Why? How could she do that to me? I kept thinking what could have been wrong? What have I done for her to do it. There are a lot of why's in my head right now. Why's that whatever I do, I can not answer. Never in my life that I have imagine that this moment will come. I loved her. I love her still but where is she? Where are you Naddie?

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It has been months but I never heard of what happen to her. My eyes started burning, and the tears that I have been suppressing for so long has been release. It felt like my heart is holding a huge and heavy matter right now. I could not move, I could not think straight, I could not eat, I barely talk with my friends or I would rather not talk to them at all. They would keep calling me to go out at night, or they would visit me at my pad but I would shut them off and push them away. These days are the hardest for me, I could die. 

"I hope she is fine, I mean, that nothing has happened to her", that's my prayer up until now that nothing bad has happened to her. 

"Does she also think of me like I always think of her?", I often asked myself. 

"Is she happy?"

"I hope she's doing fine"

Then my phone rang, it was my Mom.

"Hello my son!", she greeted me with a bright tone.

"Mom", I started weeping.

"Hey, what's up my boy?", she asked panicking.

"Mom", that's all I say.

I told my mother everything, and all she could tell me is to pack my stuff and go back. I hesitated for some time but in the end I complied to her. Maybe this is for the good and the best thing to do. I don't wanna be tied up to something that has been long gone now. I think, I need to start anew, afresh. Naddie, her memories with me will always remain, will always stay in my heart. 

But for now, I need to think of myself and it's time to let go. Let go and live again.