Torn (Book 2)

5. Harry

AHH! I don't know why this chapter seems more boring than usual or more shorter.. Hmm.. Very odd. But anyways xD! Sorry if its bad :/ maybe next chapter will be better, yeah? :) xx

Chapter 5. Harry

I sighed as I opened up the blinds to let light in. I miss Zayn. I miss waking up to him outside smoking. I miss him cuddling with me when we watch the telly. I miss him making me breakfast. I just miss him. I know he can't be here for a reason. He won't be here for a while.. But I just want him. I want him back. If I could have him come back I would. But I know it's for the best. When Zayn blacked out on me I didn't know what to do. Of course I had to call 911.. The doctor just said it was from how much he had to drink him from the night before. And on top of that the doctor said he's getting a really bad cough from him smoking.. I just cried when the doctor told me I had to leave. I cried when he woke up and was taken there. No one should go there.. Well I mean they should go there because of their problems but I could help Zayn. He didn't need to go there. I would of made sure he stopped.. But the doctor didn't let me. He said 'It's for the best kid..' But I didn't wanna I didn't wanna see him go. I wanted him to stay with me. The doctor was right though.. It was for the best.. He's only been gone for 2 days and I haven't told anyone where he is.. I haven't told his mum.. I wanna tell Liam but I don't think I can.. Zayn's mum called yesterday to talk to him but I had to make up a lie. You know how hard it is to make up a lie to someone's mum? She would freak out on Zayn if she knew.. He's already bad enough.. The last thing said to me was 'Haz.. I love you.. But this is for the best babe.. I'm just a freaking messed up person. Harry i'm sorry..' Then he doctors took him away. I saw him crying as he walked to the car. I just wanted to run over there and hug him. Or drag his ass to my car. But I couldn't. There was part of me that wanted to but half said I can't. Sometimes I wish we can just start all over a again. I can help Zayn when he first started acting strange. I could help him when he started smoking. I could of been there for him.. He gets these sick things in his mind from his brother and just repeats what his brother does. But that's truly not the Zayn I know. The Zayn I know hates his brother, love his family and friends and just a happy person. I don't know how he changed.. I wanna know why did he change? Was it something I did.. I guess the reason why I never told someone cause I don't want to believe it myself.. But I know.. Zayn's in rehab..

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"So how's your dorm thing going with Niall" I asked Josh as we walked up my steps to my flat. "Could be better.. It's just that Joey is our other room mate" Josh sighed. "No way!" "Yeah and Niall told me that he's fine with it but in his eyes I could see he was gonna throw himself out the window" Josh sighed once more. I opened the door and my flat was really dark. I flipped on the light switch and headed towards the fridge. I'm hungry. "Well why is Joey like scaring him..? Shouldn't you be worried" I asked Josh as I looked through the Fridge for something to eat. "I don't know.. Maybe it was something Joey said to him.. But I am worried. I don't want Joey to come between me and Niall. I love my blond Irish little cutie" Josh smiled when he was talking about Niall. I could see he really does love Niall. He talks about Niall with pride and it's out standing. "If he does I got a bat" I winked as I found something to eat. I tossed the carrots on the counter. "Where's Zayn" Josh asked as I closed the fridge. "Uh he left for a while" I sighed and opened the carrots. "Where is he? Did you two break up?" "Not at all.. Just.." I can't lie to Josh. I mean look at his face. "He's at rehab" I sighed. "Oh my god! Did you go through his stuff yet?" "No! Why would I?" "To make sure when he comes home there's nothing tempting him" Josh laughed. "Well it's his stuff.. He can go through it when he want to.." "Fine then I will" Josh sighed and ran to the bedroom. You know if he wants to he can go and do that. If I get yelled by Zayn i'm blaming Josh.. "So far I found weed, this thing, more weed, pills I think and more weed" Josh sighed and put it on the counter. "That's just from our room?!" "Yeah. He hid them not as well as I thought he would. He could hide it anywhere else too.." "Well are you suggesting we go through the whole house?" "Yeah. Only if you really wanna help him.." "Let's do this" I sighed and started to look through the kitchen and Josh looked through the living room. I never thought Zayn would have this much.. I mean it's crazy to think he would just hide thing from me.. I told him everything. When I found like a little thing I went crazy but now me and Josh are finding like 10 or so things.. It's just.. I can't explain it.. I just wish all of this really never happened.. I really wanna smack Zayn for doing all of this to himself but I simply can't..

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It was raining and I just finished shopping. I didn't drive cause I thought it was gonna be all sunny. But I guess not. Luckily I only have 4 bags.. I went shopping for food with the little money I got today. I like the rain though. I mean i'm like used to it always raining. That's all it does is rain, rain, rain and more rain. My flat is like 10 or so minutes from here so I know i'm gonna be soaked when I get there. I bit my lip and I kept walking. I bite my lip a lot and I don't know why. It started to really rain. I started to run and bumped into someone. "Fuck" I mumbled under my breathe and rubbed my head. "I'm so sorry mate" the guy sighed. I got up and nodded. I know this guy.. He has ginger hair, hazel eyes, a guitar wrapped around him. "Harry?" The figure knew my name.. "Ed.." I coughed out. "How you been mate" Ed smiled. "Could be uh better.. You?" "Amazing thanks" Ed smiled. "Well I gotta get out of the rain.. So i'll see yeah" I tried to walk away. "Harry.. Wanna come to my flat just just over there" Ed laughed. "Sure, why not" I smiled. I followed Ed to his flat. It was big.. Ed unlocked his door and walked into the big flat. "Wow" I laughed as I looked around Ed's flat. When you walk in there's stairs on the right and a nice kitchen on the left. If you walk straight it's just a big living room. But the living room has two big doors you have to open to go into. "Nice right?" "Very" I smiled. "So what have you been up to?" "Uh just working and crap you?" "Just finished a great tour! Get 2 months off then back to working" Ed sighed. "Seems fun though." "Very. You can slip you shoes off and put them right there and your bags can go in the kitchen" Ed smiled. His smile reminded me of a cat. I did what Ed told me to do. "Come on. I wanna show you my room" Ed laughed as we ran upstairs. When you go upstairs it's just a big door. "Your whole upstairs is your room?!" "And a bathroom" Ed laughed. "God.." Ed opened the door. It was super big. "Big right? Well anyways, you wanna play on the xbox" Ed laughed and jumped on his big bed. "Sure" I laughed and sat on the floor. "Get up here silly" Ed rolled his eyes and I sat next to Ed. There was a Lego house next to his telly. It looked really cool. "Did you make that Lego thing?" "Yeah, me and Taylor did" Ed laughed. "Taylor.. As in Taylor Swift?" "The one and only" Ed laughed and handed me a remote. Ed and I have been friends forever.. I don't know how I would forget Ed. The only reason why I don't hang out with him is cause he's usually on tour or doing something with music..

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I got home and I quickly grabbed the phone. I only get to call Zayn once a day. And it has to be at 10pm.. And it can only be a 10 minute long talk. I don't care. At least I get to talk to my Zaynie. My phone rang and it was Zayn. "Hello" I laughed as I sat on the couch. "Hazza!" "Hey babe. How you doing?" "Uh how do you think.. I just wanna come home.." "Zayn it's only 2 or so months babe. Just calm down" I laughed. "Whatever and what did you do today cheeky?" "I played Xbox with Ed Sheeran. You?" "Just trapped in a stupid room all day. I have exciting days" Zayn sighed. "Aww.. Zayn.. Be more happy or something.." "I can't. This place is shit." "Whatever" I sighed. "Harry I gotta go." "But it's only been 2 minutes" I sighed. "Yeah but I called someone else before you. Sorry babe. Love you." "Love you-" I was cut off by Zayn hanging up. I sighed and put my phone down. I'm just gonna fall asleep now..