Torn (Book 2)

18. Josh

Chapter 18. Josh

                              I ran after Niall as he ran into Nando's. He was hungry, like always, but he was excited to see Harry and Liam. Even though he saw them like 2 or so weeks ago. I wanted to see them though so Niall dragged me along. He said it was fine. When we got into Nando's I was hugged by a Liam.

                         "Joshie" Liam laughed into my ear as he hugged me. I could hear Harry laughing at Niall for doing something. Liam let go of me and smiled. "Hi" I laughed. Liam put his arm around me as we walked up to Harry and Niall.

                          "NIALL! WHAT ARE YOU DOING" Harry yelled/ laughed. Niall was talking to some random lady. I started to laugh. Harry had to drag Niall away and to our seats. We sat in a booth, Harry and Liam on one side and me and Niall on one side. Liam had his legs on the chair and his head was on Harry's shoulder. They almost looked like a couple. But for me and Niall we just sat at the table waiting for someone to talk.

                         "So Niall, why did you want us all to come to Nando's" Liam asked. "Because I was hungry and because we need to talk" Niall said. "About what" Harry asked. "About Kevin.. I got a letter, Liam got a text and Harry.. Well nothing has happened to you yet.. Or Josh.. But still he's back" Niall said. A waitress finally walked over and took our orders. "I found out Zayn is part of it and so is Kevin. That's all" Harry sighed. Liam ruffled Harry's curls because Harry started to tear up.

                    "Oh" Niall said and looked down at his drink. "Yeah. So Josh still nothing from you?" "I know my bother is in on this shit.. He texted me saying if I don't tell my parents i'm gay, he will. But I don't not quiet sure why he would say that but he also told me he's with Kevin and stuff" I shrugged.

                       "No one knows about half of the shit he does has a damn reason" Harry shrugged and took a sip of his drink. "Yeah there's one.. Get Louis" Liam sighed. "Well why does he need Zayn and Ben to help him? Why would they even want to help" I asked. "I have no clue" Liam sighed. "No one does" I added. "Well I could ask Zayn, but he won't tell me.. Meaning i'm not in his group thing" Harry said as he licked his lips. "I got an idea" Niall about yelled.

                        "Oh no.." I laughed. "Shut up! Harry, you get into the group and see what they're planning and tell us.. Because none of us can because you know. He doesn't like us" Niall shrugged. "Yeah it could work I guess" Liam looked at Harry. "Fine.. But only because you guys asked.." Harry sighed. "Yay" Niall laughed. Then our food came. I'm not really sure if Harry should do this. Like what if he gets caught or something? I just shrugged off the feeling and started to eat.

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                    Me and Niall finally got home from seeing the lads and Joey came running down the stairs. Niall was the first to jump out of the car and rush to Joey.

                      "Where were you" I heard Joey ask. "At Nando's.. I told you" Niall laughed. "I know. I got bored and very lonely by myself" Joey laughed and smiled at Niall. Their eyes wouldn't move from each other. So I coughed as I got out of the car.

                      Niall jumped and looked at me and smiled. I could see he had a blush on his face.. Why would he be blushing? If he starting to get over me and love Joey? Maybe he is because my parents don't know.. I wanna tell them but I just can't.. I can't.. Niall told his parents and their fine but my won't. They will hate me and never want to see me again. And they already found out I tried to kill myself so they arn't too proud of me.. I just don't want them to know.. But when I marry Niall.. No.. They won't be invited. They will never know.. They shall never know. What if Ben tells them before I do? Or what if Ben told them already? They would hate me more because I didn't tell them.. Ben had to.. Maybe they would understand because I was too afraid. But they would hate me still.. Because I was gay...