Torn (Book 2)

8. Zayn

Chapter 8. Zayn

I shifted in my bed. I turned over at the clock and it was 3am and I couldn't sleep. I miss Harry..

I miss his curls. I miss his hazel eye. I miss his tiny nose. I miss the way he smiles. I miss him dimples. I miss everything about him.. But mostly the way he makes me feel. The way he makes me feel when he touches me, kisses me, talks to me. I feel fireworks every time he looks at me or talks to me. I miss his slow, deep, heavy accent. I just miss him.. I remember first meeting him and thinking.. This guy is hot..

I sighed as I walked into the lunch room. First day in a new damn school.. My mum moved cause Kevin came back. Why the hell does he have to ruin everything?! I had a wonderful boyfriend, amazing friends, a nice house.7th grade isn't that hard but moving to a new school during the middle of the year is just stupid! It's all Kevin's fault! Good thing is I didn't get lost yet I guess. But I miss my old home. I miss everything from where I used to life. It was a quiet place but London is just a very busy place. It's so loud and distracting.. I don't want to be here. I sat down at a table in the back of the room. I wasn't that hungry so here I sit with everyone looking at me and laughing. I berried my head in my Hoodie and waited for the bell to ring. I don't know why people have to make me feel bad.. I already feel shitty enough that i'm at their damn school. The only person who talked to me so far was this brown haired lad. His name was Liam but it was only because he dropped his pencil so I picked it up for him. But his locker is next to mine so that's pretty cool I guess. I looked around the lunch room and saw just a bunch of people. I couldn't find Liam. I sighed once more and watched the clock.

"Hey" I heard someone yell at me. I looked across from me and there was Liam. "Hi" I smiled. "So Zayn" Liam started as he sat down. I noticed he brought someone with him. "This is Harry" Liam smiled. Harry had the most curliest hair ever. He had amazing dimples when he smiled. His smile was like a angel smile. He looked.. Perfect. "Hi" I smiled at Harry. He smirked and took a sip of water. I saw a blond lad come running at us. He was dragging some guy by the wrist to come with him. "LIAM! Explain to Josh how I beat you at football" the blond lad demanded. "It's true" Liam laughed. The blond lad sat next to me and the brown haired guy sat on the other side of me. "Who's this" Niall looked at me. "That's Zayn. Zayn that's Niall. The Irish one" Liam laughed and looked at the blond lad who was Niall I guess. "And that's Josh" Harry added. "Hi" I laughed. Harry kept looking at me and when I looked at him his eyes shot away. I mean it felt amazing to have a good looking lad looking at me. He was cheeky, nice, and just hot. Hot on so many levels. Liam Niall and Josh were having their own conversation and Harry and I just kept looking at each other. I want this lad to be mine somehow..

I sat up and looked at the clock. 6am.. James will be at my door any minute now. Every Friday I have to have this damn meeting with James. Don't get me wrong he's a great guy but he's the only reason that Harry can't visit yet. He says i'm not ready and i'm like YES I'M READY FOR MY DAMN SEXY! I feel sometimes like I wanna throw a damn chair at him! But I would never tell him uh that.. Okay maybe I did once... But who's gonna judge?! NO ONE CAUSE HE WON'T LET ME SEE ANYONE!! God I think I should really sleep.. Then there was a knock on the door. "COME IN" I screamed. James ran into my room and told me to Hush. I laughed and got out of bed. I was only wearing sweat pants and my hair was a mess but fuck that. NO ONE CAN SEE ME CAUSE JAMES WON'T ME SEE ANYONE!! Well it's my  fault i'm here.. So I should blame myself for not being able to see anyone. If I didn't do damn drugs or cut or shit like that I would be fine and be with Harry. I followed James as we walked outside. When we walked outside I jumped on the swing they have outside. I love sitting here and watching people walk by.. I don't know why though.

"So how do you feel?" "Hungry" I rubbed my tummy. "Zayn! Really, how do you feel" James sighed and took out his notebook. "Fine" I sighed. This guy needs to loosen the fuck up.. A chair could help.. Mhmmm... "Do you want to cut anyone? Have drugs anymore?" "Not that I can think of" I winked and smiled. I'm getting cheeky like Harry.. Oh no.. He's the cheeky one! I'm the shy one.. WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?! I blame James.. "Alright so your fine?" "Mhmmm.. Can someone visit me tomorrow??" "Zayn.. Are you sure you're ready" James sighed and put his notebook away. "Yes sir.." I smiled. He sighed. "PLEASE!!" I begged and gave him a puppy look. "Fine. Who do you want to visit?" "HARRY" I about flipped off the swing. "Your boyfriend?" "Yes.." No Harry my fake friend I made up cause i'm a loser.. "I'm not so sure.." "OH C'MON! It's already been 3 weeks and I haven't seen him! I MISS HIM" I was about to cry. "Fine.. I'll let you call him in a little bit.. Just go back to your room" James sighed and smiled at me. "YAY" I hugged James and skipped back to my room. I got so many people looking at me all odd like but whatever. I saw someone room door open with a visitor with them. I saw the guy before. The guy turned around and looked at me. I know him.. It's Kevin..

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I sat in my room waiting for Harry. I can't stop smiling.. Stop Zayn.. Stop.. Shit.. Not working. I finally got dressed though. I was wearing black pants and a red tee. My hair was now in a quiff again so yeah. Someone opened my door. When the door flung open. I ran over to Harry and wrapped my arms around him. Harry dropped whatever he had in his arms and hugged me. I berried my head in shirt and smiled. Harry had his forehead on mine and I felt him kiss my cheek "Haz!" "Zaynie" Harry laughed and pecked my lips. I picked up what Harry dropped on the floor. "Flowers aye" I laughed. "I didn't know what to bring you" Harry laughed. I hugged him once more and smiled. "I missed you so much..." I sighed and sat on the bed. Harry sat next to me. "I missed you too babe. So how are you" Harry smiled and simply asked. I wrapped my leg around Harry's waist and my head was on his chest. "Amazing now, you?" "Good" Harry smiled. He couldn't stop smiling either. His dimples were shining out from anything on his face. "So what's been going on with people" I laughed and couldn't take my eyes off of Harry. "Well I been going to work and hanging out with Ed. You" Harry laughed. "Nothing. How's it like hanging out with THE Ed Sheeran" I laughed. "It's like hanging out with Josh" Harry rolled his eyes. "Right.. Are you sure" I raised an eyebrow. "Zayn" Harry laughed. "Sorry.. Just asking Haz" I laughed. "Well I didn't meet Taylor Swift yet" Harry pouted. "Good cause that whore isn't taking my man. She can take Ed but not my man" I smirked at Harry. "She's not a whore Zayn. She just was rumored to have a lot of boyfriends" Harry rolled his eyes again. "I'm sorry.. What was that? WERE YOU DEFENDING THE WHORE" I laughed.

Harry pushed me off him and hit me with a pillow. I made a shocked face and hit him with the other pillow. Harry laughed and hit me on my bum. "You sick little boy" I laughed and hit Harry in the head. "What can I say? I'm just very horny meaning you left" Harry winked. I started laughing. "You did not just say that?!" "I think I just did" Harry smiled. "Your cheeky weirdo" I laughed and threw the pillow at his chest. Harry threw the pillow back on the bed and laughed. "Did you come here cause your horny" I still couldn't stop laughing. "Nope.. well maybe. No" Harry smirked. I grabbed Harry's beanie and put it on my head. "Gimme my beanie" Harry pouted. "Come and get it" I laughed and jumped on the bed. Harry was on top of me looking in my eyes and not trying to get his beanie. He was on his hands and knees. I would be lying if I said I wasn't turned on. Harry kissed me. I kissed back. Our lips going in sync. His tongue started to go to my bottom lip for an entrance. I gladly gave it to his Horny self. Harry pulled me closer so there was no more space. I stopped kissing Harry cause I needed to breathe. "I love you" I smiled. "I love you too" Harry smiled and pulled me back into a kiss.

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After Harry left I couldn't get over the fact that Kevin was here. I walked out on the porch for some air. He was there. He wasn't a ghost.. He was really there. I thought he moved away or went to jail.. I sighed and sat on the swing where I was this morning. My hair was still sticky from Harry so I think I should just take a shower and think about this in the morning. "Hello Zayn" I heard someone say from behind me. I turned around and saw Kevin. "What are you doing here" I growled. "I would ask the same to you but I know why you're here. It would be sad if mum knew.." Kevin smirked. I forgot I didn't tell mum.. I really should.. "What. Are. You. Doing. Here" I asked again through my teeth. "I work here" Kevin smirked and leaned on the porch fence. "Just go away" I sighed and walked away. "I can tell mum if you want." "What do you want?" "You know what I want. You knew sense last year!!" "Well he's married so I wouldn't set your hopes up" I closed my eyes and turned around. "I know. Find a way Zayn or mum knows.. Then when mum knows and I still don't have what I want I could do other things" Kevin finally walked away. If last year is starting all over again i'm gonna die..