Torn (Book 2)

12. Josh

Chapter 12. Josh

            It's been 2 hours sense Niall have stormed out. I don't know where he went. I don't know what he's doing. I don't know if he's okay. What if he's hurt..?

                     "JOEY" I yelled and ran out of my room. Joey walked out of his room and looked at me all confused like. "HAVE YOU SEEN NIALL" I felt like crying but no tears were coming. I felt left, alone and I need Niall. "No.. Why" Joey walked over to me and put both of his hands on my shoulders. "Because we got in a fight and then he stormed out and he hasn't came back" I sighed. Joey bit his lip as he thought of something to say. 

                  "Do you have any idea where he went" Joey said with a sigh.

             "No.. He didn't say anything. He simply told me to shut up and left" I felt tears now forming.

                  Joey wiped away my tears and pushed my hair out of my eyes. "Don't cry babe.. It's gonna be fine.. He will come back.. Don't worry" Joey smiled and moved his hands to my waist. He swayed me back and forth to calm me down.

                   "How do you know he's fine?! HE COULD BE CHEATING ON ME" I cried into Joey's shirt.

                       I was probably ruining his shirt by now. I felt Joey making circles in my back to calm me down. "He wouldn't Joshie.. Calm down" Joey rested his chin on my head. I stopped crying and let go of Joey. "He'll come home.." Joey smiled. I nodded and walked away from Joey.

                   I feel like this is all my fault. It's my fault I yelled at Niall for something Ben did. It's my fault he left. Everything is my fault. If Niall comes home hurt it's my fault. If Niall doesn't come home it's my fault. If Niall doesn't wanna talk to me it's my fault. If Niall breaks up with me it's my fault. It's not his fault, nothing is. He walked out because of something I did. And I just have to wait to see what happens. He could break up with me, not talk to me, never wanna be by me, hate me, or anything. We did everything together but now he won't want anything to do with me. It will then just me and Joey.. No Niall.. No more Niall and Josh... Just Josh and Joey.. I can't imagine life without him.. He helped me through everything..

                         "Stop thinking so hard love" Joey looked at me.

                   It's like Joey can read my mind. That's why were best mates.

                        "Sorry.. I just miss him" I sighed and looked away from Joey. I looked around the flat to find something else to think about.. But I couldn't get my mind off of him. I can't help it..

              Then I heard the door handle start to turn. Me and Joey both looked at the door. His hair was a mess, his eyes were all red and puffy. He threw his keys on the counter.

                      "Where were you" Joey asked.

                        Niall looked like he needed someone but no one came. Like a river fell over him but he noticed it was his tears. I could see in his eyes in the inside he was screaming but on the outside he was broken. Niall never actually lets his feelings out. He just wonders off and never cries or anything. But I knew my best mate right now was broken and was sick of crying. I could see dried tears on his cheeks and some still in his eyes. 

                                                      "N-no where" Niall mumbled.

                    In his voice you could hear it cracking. Like he was about to cry. Cry for help. Cry for something I couldn't help him with. But why would he need help? What really happened?