Torn (Book 2)

24. Josh

Chapter 24. Josh

                 I parked my car in front of the dorm complex. Ben bought me a ticket to Hawaii. He went with me because it was my first time flying. We had so much fun. He was being so nice.. It was kinda scary because I thought he hated me. I told him about coming out to our parents and just everything. It was nice..

                "Joshie" Ben whispered in my ear. "What" I laughed. "Wake up" Ben laughed and jumped on the bed we been sharing for the past 5 or so days. "Why" I laughed and kicked Ben's feet that kept jumping. "BECAUSE WE GOING TO A DAMN BEACH! IT'S ONLY 5 MINUTES AWAY! C'MON" I heard my younger brother yell and laugh. I got off the bed and pushed him down. His legs were hanging off the bed and it looked as if I was gonna kiss him. He was leaning back with both of his hands on the bed helping him up. I was like in-between his legs. I shook it off and walked to get my swim suit. It had music notes on it.. Ben got it for me because it made him think of me. I grabbed a towel and waited for Ben by the door. We were in a really nice hotel..

                      But they thought we were odd because we were pale and had an accent. But some girls tried to flirt with me but I told them I was gay and then they got all weird as if being gay was a damn crime. But I met a cute gay guy named Cameron at the pool the hotel had.. He kissed me and it got odd but I explained to him I had a boyfriend. But now were friends. Well after I gave him my number. He texts me a lot. It's nice. He has an amazing American accent, he said he was from New York. Ben finally got finished and had already called a cab. We walked down to the lobby and got into the cab.

                   I thought we were gonna walk but whatever. He were finally there and I jumped out of the car. I handed Ben my towel and ran towards the water. It was so amazing. Ben stopped me though. "Wait up dope" he laughed and ran to the beach. This is the best week ever.. Well we still have 2 more days or so but whatever..

                   I missed Niall so much though. I got my bags and my phone and walked up the steps. I opened the door and sat my bags down by the door. I took out my phone. "Niall, you will not believe how many pictures I got" I laughed and looked up. "N-Niall.."

                  Niall pulled his face away from Joey and looked at me. "Oh.. Josh.. Your're home" Joey said. Niall had bruises all over him but I didn't care.. He was kissing my best mate! My own damn boyfriend! And I felt bad about having Cameron peck my damn lips.. They probably been making out and shit while I was gone. I put my phone on the counter and ran away. I ran down the stairs. I don't know where i'm going but I heard feet following me. I felt my knees give up and I fell to my knees and cried. I cried into my hands. I felt Niall start to make circles in my back to calm me down. "Don't touch me" I hissed between sobs. "Josh.. Please listen to me" Niall begged. "Go to hell" I mumbled into my hands.

                         "JOSH GOD DAMN IT! STOP!" I got up and pushed Niall down. He looked so small. I was gonna say something but I started to cry again. He cheated on me.. He loved someone else. When he said he loved me he also said it to Joey. "Y-You were suppose to love me forever. Y-You were suppose to b-be the one I loved forever. You were t-the one I was gonna marry! You w-were the one I wanted to live with. H-have a family with. B-but now all you have is J-Joey" I said between sobs again. "You haven't lost me Josh.. I will never give up on us.." Niall said. "I'm the one who g-gave us o-on us.." I mumbled. "No.. You can't. I love you" Niall started to cry.

                       "I'M NOT THE ONLY DAMN PERSON YOU LOVE NOW AM I NIALL" I yelled. "J-Josh.." Niall shuttered. "Was I not good enough? Just explain to me w-why?" I didn't really wanna know why but then I did.. "I don't know Josh.. It just happened I guess.. But I will never love you less than I ever had.. Just listen to me.. I can make this right. I'll never let you go" Niall looked up at me with tears streaming down his face. "I'm d-done with you" I cried. "No! Please Josh! No don't! Don't give up! Don't give up on us" Niall cried. "There is no us. Just you Niall" I looked down at Niall. "Joshie.. We can work this out" Niall sniffled. I shook my head and started to walk back up the steps. Niall grabbed my leg and looked at me. I cried because of him once i'm not doing it again. I kicked his hand away and ran up the rest of the steps. I grabbed my suit case and went into my room after I got my phone. I quickly called Liam, because I didn't know who else to call.