The other day I was at the store. It was a regular day for me. I was tired and I wasn't in the mood to deal with anything. My heart felt empty and my mind buzzed with numbness. My fingers were aching from balling them into my pillows and blankets from crying so hard. I felt awful.
Though no one noticed I was relieved, but a little sad at the same time. It would have been nice if my mother had asked if I was okay, but I would have just lied.
Anyways, as I was at the store with my mother she had gone off a sepreate way and told me to go get a few things for the house. I walked over to the section and there was a kid of maybe 13-14 years old. He was looking at a box of cookies and I smiled before looking for what my mother wanted. I reached to grab them and the kid snickered. I retracted my hand and looked to him. It was awful.
He looked at me then to my wrist and laughed. I didn't understand until I saw my sleeve, it was pulled up and you could see my fresh cuts. The kid just laughed and as I felt the tears spring to my eyes I grabbed what I needed and began to walk away, but not before I heard him say "ew". I know it shouldn't hurt me still, I should be used to it. I mean after all I did do this to myself.
But, the point is he laughed at my cuts and said that hurtful two lettered word. I still feel my chest drop a bit when I think of it.
When we walked through the door and got into the shower. I put my music in high and hurt myself more and more because i felt like I deserved it.
You all don't deserve it. You all don't deserve to feel unwanted, weak, or even worthless. You all deserve to feel beautiful even with the scars on your arms, you deserve to feel worthy of anything and you deserve to feel wanted by anyone. You should feel good about who you are. You are you and that's all anyone could ask, or should ask.
Don't let some people who can't see how wonderful you are because their head is to far up their butts to see it get you down. They will say mean things, see our weaknesses and pick in them but you shouldn't let it get to you.
You deserve the best of anything and everything. I promise you that.
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The Real Reason.
Cerita PendekThis is a warning. Everything that i say in this short story is true... i know because it is my life and this is the one thing that i feel will help just a little to make everyone have a better understanding. message me on this account or on Faceboo...
