A Web of Spider Bites

Chapter 10

Ben dropped the sharp object from his thin fingers. With a silent bang it hit the stone cold floor. Both pairs of eyes stared into different places: Ben's eyes are glued to the crying, shaking mess that sat before him, Bells eyes are burning holes into the floor. Ben couldn't believe what he was hearing, who would do such a thing? Pull such a bad move? It's hard enough to be depressed let alone have your own Father walk out due to not liking something that happened: something which is out of your control. 

Ben is confused and Bells mad. She didn't have to tell him, she shouldn't have told him; now he has more to use against her. But will he? Ben didn't know what he was expecting when pushing Bell to the spilling point, but he wasn't expecting that. Nothing could have prepared him for what answer came out of Bell. 

"What?" Ben asked at a quiet whisper. 

Bell has gone numb, she really doesn't care what happens now. She doesn't care if he kills her and right now she wants to feel pain, to feel something to ground her. 

Don't tell him 

Just do it, why do you still care? 

Tell him

Don't do it, he won't care

Do it and make this quicker

The voices in Bells head argued. What does she have to lose? Nothing. 

"He was very proud of me and my Mum, we were the model family. But then I started to feel down, I don't remember how it happened, I just remember falling and not being able to stop. One day we were having our evening meal around the table and my sleeve fell down" Bell begins to form a lump in her throat, her words are now chocked "He saw my cuts and he... he lost it... Kept going on about all the work he put in to having a perfect family had just been destroyed in that very moment. I didn't want to hurt him! Or anyone! But I did, all this time I thought I was hurting myself and I was doing the opposite...

"The next morning his stuff was gone and my Mum was sat around the table in the kitchen crying. When I walked through she pointed her finger at me and said 'It's all you, I lost the only thing I ever loved because of you and your fucked up head' It killed me.... What am I still doing here Ben? Why haven't you killed me yet? Please just do it." Bell sobbed and pleaded as she remember the day where the real pain started. 

"Because" Ben said "There's something about you... After hearing that, I know that we'll either destroy each other or save each other and I want to know which one is right. So I'm gonna wait it out." Ben smiled a smile but his eyes held pain. 

"You really believe in saving and all that? What utter bullshit!" Bell shouted, getting mad "We're gonna murder each other in someway, please do it now and make it quick" She calms as she is almost in a whisper. "Death can't possibly be worse that what I've already lived through" 

"How do you know?" Ben asks. 

The two of them haven't changed position, Ben the high and mighty standing, Bell the scared and sad one sitting. 

"We decide how much things hurt us and destroying my family can't be beaten, I won't let it be beaten... The monster inside me won't let it be beaten..." 

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Hey guys, sorry its short I just wanted to update it and I don't have a lot of time at the moment! <3