Finding Me

Chapter 12

Harry saw Zayn was following them. He didn't know if he wanted to tell Ava or not. He thought about just parking in the garage, getting her in the house, then he could deal with Zayn without her knowing. But he hasn't lied to her since they started dating he didn't want to give her a reason to not trust him.

"Ava, Zayn is behind us. You feel like finding out what he wants, or do you want Lou and Damon to get rid of him.?" Harry finally asks her as he pulls into their driveway.

"He's here for a reason, so I guess I will give him a chance and find out what he has to say." Ava tells Harry as they exit the car. "You will all stay in there with me, right?" She asks everyone there.

"I will never leave your side, Peanut. You know that." Harry tells her, kissing her.

Damon and Lou nod. "We're always here when you need us sis, family sticks together forever." Damon says.

Zayn heard what the guy with the black hair like his said as he slowly approached the group as they stood in front of the door. "You want to come in?" Harry asks him. "You can tell us what you want while I'm still in the frame of mind to listen." Harry smirked looking at Ava. "You better be glad this little woman has me wrapped around her little finger, she the only person to ever get me to do anything they want other than my mom." Harry smiles and puts his arm around Ava's shoulders pulling her close.

"Thanks." Zayn nods as he follows everyone through the door and into one of the most beautiful homes he's ever seen in his life. They continued on until they entered the kitchen where Harry sat Ava on a bar stool while he went to a cabinet getting glasses out and sitting them on the counter. The guy he heard them call Lou was in the fridge pulling out sodas and the other guy, he has yet to learn the name of was putting ice in in the glasses. This looked like something they had done several times to where it was routine.

"Okay, you know me and Harry." Ava says to Zayn now that everyone is sitting. "The guy to your left is Harry's best friend Louis and the one to your right is another bestie Damon. They are both in the band Harry is in Lou also sings and Damon plays the keyboard. So now that you know who everyone is mind telling us what's going on.?" Ava says to Zayn.

Zayn nodded. "First, I just want to say, I'm sorry, for everything in the past I've done to hurt you. It was wrong of me to do those things." He says shaking his head. "I'm not going to try and make excuses here, I'll just explain things the best I can. Then you can decide from there." Zayn tells the 4 looking at him. At their nod he continues.
"This may take a while so bare with me for a bit. I guess I need to start at the beginning. When I was younger my parents were always fighting, and I don't mean with just words, even though there were plenty of those flying around. No, they would get into some knock down drag out fist fights that would leave them both in a bloody mess. And here I was 3 years old having to listen and watch it all. This went on for years, when I was older I'm would ask my mom why she never left my dad." Zayn closed his eyes and rubbed them. "Her answer to that was "I love him"." He looked at Ava first then Harry. "How can you love someone who beats the shit out of you daily? I guess as I got older I just automatically thought, in my twisted way of thinking, that was how you showed someone you care." Zayn said think about Marcus, causing his voice to crack.
"When you grow up with that shit I guess it's all you know." He adds seeing Ava wipe a tear knowing she was probably thinking about Marcus too. "Then Marcus entered the picture his freshman year. I liked him, a lot, but being raised the way I was the only way I knew how to show him that was to insult him. Stupid as I was, I didn't know that wasn't how it was done. I had always heard my dad call my mom names like slut, whore, and many others. And my mom was just as bad calling my dad names as well. So that's what I did with sweet, clueless Marcus. Right up to the day he committed suicide." By now Zayn had tears rolling down his face surprising the others there.