Weakness ~a sequel to Glad You Came~

Chapter Eleven

Before you knew it, Haley was out and Mr. And Mrs. Campbell were leaving to head back to the United States.

We all stood outside, saying our goodbyes and giving hugs and kisses. Nina started tearing up, and Haley was like a kid on their first day of kindergarden. Finally, after all their bags were in the back of the cab, they pulled away and we waved as they drove away. Soon the cab became out of sight as it turned the corner heading to the airport. I looked at Nina and she was crying. "I already miss them." She said. I patted her back and we headed back into the flat. I had to help Haley because she was still on crutches.

When we got inside, Nina went straight to her room and Haley sat on the couch. I sat down next to her.

"So, you ready for school next week?" I asked. She shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know. I don't want to go." She said. "Well you sort of have to, you are already accepted and-" then Haley cut me off. "I just miss America. All my other friends back home, school, and family." She said, then her head fell down and she cried. I hugged her. "Do you still want to live here?" I asked. "I do, but I just miss home so much." She said. "If you don't want to-" then she cut me off again. "I'll think about it." Then she got up and went into her room.

I shrugged my shoulders and went into the kitchen. Was I the only one that did not want to leave? I mean, home sucked. I hated it. Even though my parents were married, I could tell they weren't happy. Dad left and lived with his mom for a few weeks, mom cried herself to sleep a lot, dad didnt even sleep in the same bed as my mom... He slept in the den downstairs. They fought, and I couldn't take much.

Two nights before I left for London, mom and I had a talk. She thought I was leaving because of the mistakes she made in the past and her and my fathers relationship had drove me away from them. She was right about the second part.

I love my parents with all my heart, but... I'm just so done. I am sick of the lies, the stress, the depression. From the outside we look like a happy family, but it's the opposite on the inside. I wish I had someone to talk to, but I don't. Even thought Nina and Haley would listen and be there for me, I just don't want to dump all this on them. Quite honestly, I don't want anyone else to know what goes on. Jay knows, however. I don't usually talk to him about it, but he had come to surprise me one night and I was sitting on my bed crying because even though I live in London, these family problems still seemed to haunt me. I told him everything, and then he just comforted me for the rest of the night.

I turned on the kettle and pulled out three cups. I put a tea bag in each cup and waited. Jay and I haven't really talked much because he was back in the studio working and I didn't want to bother him. But every night we would text or talk on the phone. I found a job at a Starbucks... Figures.

When the water was done boiling in the kettle, I poured the water into the cups and grabbed two of the cups and brought them into Nina and Haley's room. After the tea was delivered I went back and grabbed mine, then went back into my room.

I laid down on my bed, drinking my tea and thinking to myself. I have been wanting a new tattoo on my shoulder/back. I was thinking a feather with birds coming out at the top and the words "Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly" written along the side. The quote was from one of my favorite Sleeping With Sirens songs. Or I was thinking the words "I'm free now" from another Sleeping With Sirens song.

I'm free from the family pain I go through at home, I'm free from all the bullies back home that hated me for no reason, and I'm free to live my life the way I want it.

Fuck, why not get two?

I went into Nina's room and she was on her laptop. She seemed to stop crying, but now she was focused on her computer screen. "What's up?" I asked. She looked up at me and smiled. "I got a job!" She said. "Oh my god, really? Where?" I asked. "At a law firm, as an assistant to a lawyer!" I smiled with pride and ran over to her and gave her a huge hug. "I'm so happy for you!" I said. Them her smiled faded and she pulled away from the hug.

"There's one problem." She said. "What is it?" I asked with caution. She looked down at her hands that rested in her lap. She looked back up to me and tears were back in her eyes.