Adopted By The Sidemen (Sidemen Fanfiction)

Chapter 30

*Simon's POV*

     I opened my eyes and saw Mackenzie snuggled into me. It wasn't a dream. I wish it was. It kills me to see Mackenzie this upset. I've never seen her cry, until today. I feel bad. Her life was getting better, and now it's not. I didn't want to move, in fear of waking her up. It felt so damn right for is to be snuggled up like this. I want to her to be mine. I really do. But now, I don't know if she'll want a relationship. I felt her move a little and I looked down at her face. Her eyes fluttered open and her face came to life. "Good morning." I whispered. She stretched and rubbed her eyes. "What time is it?" She mumbled. "I have no idea. I couldn't move when I woke up." I said with a small smile. He blushed and scooted away from me. "Sorry." She muttered. I shook my head. "Don't apologize." I said as I sat up. She just nodded and looked down at her hands. "Are you alright?" I asked her in a soft voice. He sighed as looked up at me. "No. But I will be. I always am. It's all my fault for not being okay anyways." She said nearly a whisper. "It's not your fault." I said as I reached out and out a hand on her shoulder. "It is. I'm the one who got attached. I don't know why I even bother, everyone always just fucks me over and leaves anyways." She said as her voice grew louder. "We will never leave you. All of the guys love you dearly. All of the Sidemen, the Cal, we all love you. We're not going to leave you." I said as I scooted closer to her and put my arm around her. "Promise?" She asked as she looked up at me, tears in her eyes. "Promise." I said as I rested my head on hers. She put her head on my shoulder. "Thank you." She said in a shaky voice. I just nodded. She sniffled. "Can we record something?" She asked as she pulled herself off of me to completely face me. "Why do you want to record?" I asked her with an eyebrow raised. "Because that's when I'm happiest. When I'm playing GTA or something with almost all of you." She said as she looked backdown at her hands. "Of course we can." I said as I got off of her bed. "I'm going to ask the guys. Be by your computer on Skype." I said as I left her room. She smiled a little and got up.

*Mackenzie's POV*

     Simon came back into my room after a few minutes. "The boys left a note and said they went shopping. They won't be back until later." He said as he sat down on the bed. "But we could record a Q&A or something." He suggested. "Sure." I said as I stood up and walked towards my closet. "Let me." Simon said as he jumped in front of me and began rummaging through my closet. I sighed and sat back down in my chair. He laid out a pair of black high-wasted shorts and a black and blue crop top. "Here." He said as he stood back and observed the outfit. "Sometimes I really do question your sexuality." I said as I walked towards the clothes. He chuckled. "Get out so I can get changed." I said as I pointed towards the door. "I gotta set up anyways." He said as he jogged out of the room. I wasn't going to let myself become depressed again. I was going to force myself to get out of bed and do something everyday. Whether that be record one video or go to a giant meet and greet. I miss Karmyn so damn much already it's unreal. This is why I never got too attached to some one. I looked at myself in the mirror after I got dressed. I pointed to my reflection with a stiff finger. "You got this." I said sternly. "You can get through this. You can get through anything." I told myself, mainly trying to convince myself. I put my hair into a cute messy bun and went to the bathroom. I was met with Simon fixing his hair. I brushed my teeth and put on mascara. I didn't feel like wearing any makeup today, but it was a video. Simon had already left by the time I got done. I looked at myself once again in the mirror before going to Simon's room. He had already tweeted for questions, but I don't know what the hashtag was, hopefully not something stupid. I hope this cheers me up and takes my mind off of Karmyn. I sat down in Simon's spare chair and rolled it towards his chair that he was sitting in, scrolling through his phone. "Ready?" He asked as he looked up at me. I forced a smile and nodded. He looked back at his phone and then up at the camera. With that, he began recording. I figured out the hashtag was '#Kimon'. "Why Kimon?" I asked after he did the intro. "Because Kenzie and Simon." He said as he pointed at both of us. "When does anyone call me Kenzie?" I asked as he just looked at me with a smile. "That's your YouTube channel name." He said as he threw his hands in the air. I just rolled my eyes. "Okay whatever. Let's get on with the questions." I said as I waved him to do his thing. "Okay. First question is 'Is Mackenzie like the housewife that cooks, cleans, and does the laundry?'" Simon read out. I giggled. "Hell no!" I yelled before Simon could answer. "Yeah. She goes to school and has her own YouTube channel, so she's just as busy, if not busier with school, as us." He said with a small nod. "Sometimes I do cook, to be fair." I said after thinking for a few seconds. "You've only cooked like twice." He said as he looked at me. "Whatever." I said as I crossed my arms. "Next question. 'Is Kimon real?'" Simon read out. My heart fluttered a little at the thought and my cheeks were hot. "No, not yet." He spoke up after I was quiet. "Yet?" I asked as I turned my chair towards him. "Yet." He said with a nod. "Don't get all cocky. I could get a boyfriend tomorrow for all you know." I said jokingly. "Oh really? I'd like to see you try." He said as he raised an eyebrow. "You don't have any faith in me?!" I asked as I playfully hit his arm. "None at all." He said with a flat voice. I rolled my eyes and pointed at the camera. "You guys out there, hit me up. My twitter is in the description." I said with a wink. He chuckled. I looked at him and he shook his head. "Oh my god." He said as he facepalmed. "Hey, it's what you get for not believing in me." I said as I nudge him with my elbow. We continued with the Q&A. It was super fun. We did different cut aways and skits and answered loads of questions. Once we got done, I stayed in Simon's room as he edited. "Karmyn would've loved this video." I said under my breath as I wiped a tear. Man, I'm beginning to be a big softy. "It's alright." Simon said as he put his arm around me. "This video is dedicated to her." He said as he pulled away. He did a few more things and the I saw him do something I wouldn't think he would've done. He typed a little message at the end of the video. It said 'In loving memory of Karmyn Alexis. She died a horrible death and will always be missed. We love you Karmyn. R.I.P. love.' I smiled as I read it. "Thank you." I said as he pulled me into a hug. "You are very much welcome." He said. I pulled away from the hug and stood up. "I'm going to eat." I said as I walked towards the door. I didn't wait for a response, I left. I walked towards the stairs. I passed Vik's room and saw that the door was open. I saw his piano and sighed. He wouldn't mind if I played it, would he? It has always been my secret passion to play piano. I stepped halfway into his room and bit my lip deep in thought. I shrugged as I walked towards his piano. I sat myself down and began playing. I sang and played 'Human by Christina Perri'. It was such a relaxing song. "I'm only human, and I bleed when I fall down. I'm only human, and I crash and I break down." I sang. I cut the song off early, sighing as I rested my head in my hands. I heard someone clear their throat from the door way. I turned around quickly to see Simon there. He was leaning up against the doorway with his arms folded on his chest. "I-I'm sorry." I said as I stood up. "You've got to stop apologizing." He said as I walked towards him "You're really talented." He added. I blushed as I walked past him. "Thanks." I muttered as I started down the stairs. He grabbed my wrist gently, stopping me and turning me around. He walked down a few steps so that he was on the same one as me. I got lost in his eyes, counting the different colors. "I love you." He said as he raised his hand up to my face. "I love you too." I said. His eyes flicked back and forth from my eyes to my lips. After a while of silence and him thinking., I spoke up. "Are you going to fucking kiss me or not?" I said with a smile. He chuckled and leaned in. We kissed. Our lips moved and fit perfectly together. We pulled away at the same time, but he rested his forehead on mine. "This is why I love you." He whispered, sending shivers down my spine. I smiled in response. "I've got a question." He whispered. "Yes?" I whispered with a smile. "Will you, Mackenzie, be my girlfriend?" He asked. My heart was racing and I felt as if I could float away, if he wasn't holding onto my waist. "It's about fucking time you asked, Minter." I said as I went for another kiss. "That's a yes?" He asked as he pulled away. I nodded and smiled. I felt something pulling on my sock. I looked down to see Zeus. I smiled. He was still so cute. "Is someone jealous?" I asked in a baby voice as I bent done and picked him up. Simon chuckled and rubbed his head. I found myself smiling. Oh, if Karmyn could see me now.