Seeing is believing

Chap 3

I remained silent starting at the floor. I couldn't look up at her, I felt so ashamed. "Y/N. Please, I need to know." Still nothing. I could bring myself to tell her, not after relieving her for many years that the nightmare was gone. It really wasn't. It never left me. It's there ever time I closed my eyes. Every time I give in to exhaustion. I tensed up when I heard my mother gasp. "I-it isn't the nightmare, is it?" She exclaimed. I couldn't hold it in, I couldn't lie anymore. I nodded feebly with closed eyes. Mother was silent. I glance up seeing her starting at me worriedly. "Honey you need help! I'm calling the hospital." My heart picked up the pace as mother turned her back on me to make the phone call. Hospitals. My worst fear after those few months of watching father on his death bed. "No!" I yell,  grabbing mother's wrist before she could go away further. She glanced back at me. She spun around and grabbed my shoulders  firmly before shaking me. "Y/N! this is getting out of hand! Your health has to be dealt with!" I'm not going.  I will never set foot in one dying institutes ever again! I pull out of her hold violently with gritted teeth. "No!" I'm fine! I will not go near that place again!" " but Y/N NO" "NO! I AM NOT GOING! mother jumped away in alarm. My shoulders heaved as I panted. I had raised my voice pretty loud. Mother scuttled out of my bedroom in fear and defeat. I had scared her away.  But I felt really bad. She was the only family left that I cared about. After pacing my room for several minutes, I gave I. With a sigh. I crawled out of my room and proceeded to the front room I went to knock first, but then I heard murmurs. Quiet mumbled from my mother. I could only faintly make out her words. "Really? That's great, but do hurry! You're on your way now? Good, I'll try my best to keep her in the house-" I staggered back as my heart shattered. I can't believe it......