Rihanna P.O.V
Wednesday, 3 days until first DWT date.
"Robynnnnn.........."
"Whattttt???" I yelled back in exasparation. M was really getting in my last nerve way to early. I was finishing packing my stuff so it can be take to new york by tonight. Getting ready for a tour as long as mine was supper stressing, i mean tour in general is stressing long or short. The amount of time that touring demands from me leave me with little with no time to do anything else. 'Shit what am i missing?' I asked myself.
"Jen needs you! I think you have a call" i sight and left what i was doing and went downstairs. I knew that whatever call that came throught jen it was business related so that imidiately took my attention.
"Where is she?" I asked Mel when she pass me coming up the stairs.
"The kitchen"
I walked to the kitchen and saw jen with her back to me. I walked around the counter and leaned on it waiting for her to pass me the phone or tell me what this was about.
"Ok. So is no way we can pospone that for tomorrow afternoon?" She asked and waited for the other person to finish speaking. By now a frown was adorning my makeup free face. "Ok, ok. I'll let her know............ok, have a good day" she said hangging up and looking up at me.
"We need to leave by noon....." i cut her off before she finished talking.
"Wait, what? We are suppose to leave tomorrow"
"I know robyn. I just got a call you need to be in NY tonight, the label changed the meeting for tonight or tomorrow first thing in the morning, they can't do it tomorrow afternoon" i sight and smack my lips looking to the kitchen window.
"Im really hating this shit, how many times had they changed my shit the last 2 month? They dont know i got way to much important shit to do? I hate this shit man......." i said looking down to my feet.
"I know, im sorry. But i think this may actually be good. We can go to new york and handle business from there and just go to buffalo on friday night and come back after the concert and stay in NY until Philly concert. After that you will be in the road for a little bit before you next day off. Think about it, this may be good, you need space too. Staying in this house and been mad at the world would not fix anything. Whatever happen with her needs to stay here in LA, you need to stay focus Rob" she said walking towards me and rubbing my back. That they of me and Lils talk i came back here and locked myselft in my room for a whole day, i didn't want to speak to no one. I needed a break from everything around me, i felt low, like i wasn't enough. The thought of me and chris breakup came back, what if that's why he cheated on me? Wasn't i good enough for him that he needed to go back and get it from her?.
"I know, i know. It's just that.....i can't help to feel that im not enough you know" i said and couldn't help for my voice to break." I didn't tho this thing with her could get to me that much but,ig did, and not having her around feels really.....weird. Like im alone, again. " she hugged me and i rested my head in her shoulders.
"Everything will be alright, dont trip, you guys will fix this shit. And you're not alone. You got the people around you, and we all love you so much. I want you to be happy, whatever you decide to do, do it for you!" I nodded even tho we didn't share the same mind set. My mind was a mess at this moment. I just wanted to hid and never get out of this house until i feel batter. She was gone from my life, for good and i was left behind to take my life back to square one.
Delilah ( same day)
Black or gray. Gray or black. she needed to choose, we had been looking at the options in this closet for about 20 minutes. I glared at her to se a small frown in her face.
