RIHANA POV:
I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother
'cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know
I was humming to an Alanis Morissette song call oughta know. It was one of those songs that i could listen to daily without growing tired of it. I loved that song, no just for the lyrics, but because it was real music, and it was nearly impossible to find good music now.
I looked out the window, it was raining. My brother Rorrey call to invited me to a party tonight at his LA condo. I really wasn't in the mood to socializes but he insisted. I haven't see him a lot lately and we have plans for next week but i agree to go to his get together tonight. I got home around 4pm from an early photo shoot for a magazine. I walked to my bedroom leaving everyone in the living room. I wanted to take a nap before going to Rorrey's. In my bedroom i walked to the bathroom, got rid of my clothes and turn the hot tub on. I got rid of my makeup next. I put my phone next to the tub and got in. Closing my eyes i leaned my head back to the edge of the tub. Silence, it was the best form of therapy or a least for me. I was enjoying my quiet time until a hear my phone vibrate. A TEXT message, from Aubrey.
LA, call me ASAP*
i press call and put the phone to my ears. He answer on the third ring. "Hello beautiful "
" hey"
"Im in LA, wanna catch up tonight?"
"I can't. My brother is having a party tonight with his friends and want me to go. I said i will. " after i said that he was silence. "still there?"
"Yeah, here. Well i will be here until next friday if you have time just call me." His tune of voice change. Now his voice wasn't so seductive anymore.
"Mm ok, will do"
"Ok. I gotta go, talk to you later"
"Later"
He hang up. I knew he wasn't my biggest fan right now. He was getting tired of this damn game i seeing to be playing. But it wasn't a game. Believe me i feel guilty for letting him down, but i wasn't the best person to be investing your time in. I was confused, my feelings were all over the place, and fucking him wasn't gonna fix anything. It was all his fault. The fucking text message from last night fuck up all of the progress i had accomplish until now. I was staring to put him behind and move forward, but count on him to fuck everything up. I shouldn't had be so incredulous and trusting, i knew deep down he couldn't give up that easy. Like why can He just get the memo and see that i didn't want him anymore? Why can he just move on with that bitch and leave me the fuck alone? But not! Trust Chris to surprise you in the must fuck up way.
I got out of the tube and went to the bedroom leaving behind a trail of water, i was naked and dripping water everywhere! I went to the walking closet and grab some towels, i put them down in the love seat next to the makeup area, and laid down. Closing my eyes i drift off to a deep sleep.
