Stark Bleiben | Stay Strong | Tony Stark's Daughter | Book 1

Talking

Lab...

Pietro speeds into the lab and sets me down on the floor. I see Tony with his thumb and middle finger on his temples while the other hand is in a clenched fist on the lab table. Barton and Tiffany in the corner of the room talking as Wanda eyes me and Piet. I look up at Pietro with a unsure look on my face. He responds with giving me a comforting look and pushing me forward towards Tony.

"Uh." I scratch the back of my head, Tony's head snaps my way. I turn back a bit and look at Pietro, he gives me a continue look and I turn my focus back on Stark. "Can we, uh. Talk?" I ask.

Tony nods. "Yeah. Of course." He walks up to me. "Wanna go somewhere private or?"

"No. It's fine. They already know." I shrug and sit down in the rolling chair. "What do you wanna know first then?"

"Uh." He scratches the back of his head while rolling up another rolling chair. "Why?"

"That is the only question that really matters, doesn't it?" I let out an awkward chuckle. "Uh... Well... It was after SHIELD took us in and we started to become agents. I realized that everything that we did, was horrible. It was bad. We thought we were doing good but we weren't. For 20 years of my life I thought I was doing good, but I was doing bad. It was just so hard living with that I tortured those people, I stole those things, I killed those people, volunteerly." I explain. "I thought I deserved the pain and not them. I thought hurting myself would somehow make it even with all the lives I took, all the people I hurt. All the stuff that I bottled up from the years at Hydra, I just let out all that anger about them on myself. I thought I should have died instead of the innocent people's lives I took."

"Did you try to kill yourself!?!" He asked in a bit of a high pitched tone.

I hesitate but then feel a hand on my shoulder, giving me the comfort to continue knowing that it'll be good to tell him. "Yes- But I stop everything after it." I start to speed up my talking as Tony opens his mouth to continue.

"How?" Tony asks with his eyebrows furrowed.

".... When. When Tiff was training solo, I purposely overdosed on some pills. Then I woke up in a hospital the next day with Tiff sleeping next to me in a chair." I pause for affect. "She said she found me unconscious on the floor in the kitchen with a weak pulse. She rushed me to the hospital and that was that. I begged her not to tell SHIELD because they would make a big deal about it, so we just went to a regular therapist but they would lead me to another one since none of them knew how to help someone who had that much damage." I look down at the floor, ashamed of myself.

"Wh-What'd you do then?"

"I drank... A lot." I shrug. "Better substitute than slitting my wrists."

Tony nods understandingly. "Tiff said you slept around a lot, why is that, though?"

I sigh as I see Wanda cringe a bit and Pietro tense. "Lets just say that I had a boyfriend who I loved dearly but then we had to break it off since I had to leave for another project and since we most likely wouldn't see each other ever again." I say still looking down at the floor. "I thought sleeping around maybe would fill the hole that was left because I wanted to stay but the other choice was splitting up family." I take a deep breath as I notice Pietro walking out with Wanda trailing after him. "Since I lost all of my family, I didn't want that to happen to them. No matter how much I loved him, I couldn't let them split the family up. You just can't do that to people, it's not right." I chew on my lip a bit.

We stay in silence for a few seconds.

"I'm...I'm just gonna go now." I say wiping a tear away with my sleeve as I stand up.

"Oh, okay." He stands up too. "Thanks for talking about this with me. I know it was hard." He says softly.

"Yeah, yeah. Sure." I walk out the lab into the hallway that lead to the stairs that go downstairs into the living room. "Sure."

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Short chapter deal with it. I love this book and I don't care if I update this again today. Deal with that.

~Meowlnir

P.S
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