I stared at the TV screen, depending on whether or not to finally get my lazy butt of the couch. I had a blanket wrapped around my shoulder's. My phone was on the cushion beside me. My eyes were dry from staring at the TV. The gossip channel had been playing the same story for the past 3 hours and I had been watching it, not tearing my eyes from it once. I had spent hours debating whether what to do. I watched as Logan grabbed Olvia by the waist and pulled his lips to hers. The boys had been on Ellen today, this morning over in Amercia. Logan, not by choice, had to kiss Olivia on stage. It had been only a week since Logan and I made up but this really got to me.
I picked up my phone, my hands shaking. I unlocked it and clicked call. Logan would be up since it'd only be around 12 p.m there.
"Carter?" Logan answered.
"Um h-hey Logan." I stuttered.
"What's wrong?" He asked worriedly. "And don't lie. I know something is wrong 'cause you stuttered." I sighed.
"Logan, I- I think we need a break." I finally got out.
"W-what?"
"I- I can't do this. I'm s-sorry." I cried, as tears left my eyes. "This long distance, you and Olivia, it's hard to deal with Logan." I continued before he could say anything. "I don't want to do this anymore than you do. We both have work, we have busy lives."
"Your b-breaking up with me?" He asked. The hurt in his voice broke my heart and I let out a sob.
"I-It's better th-this way."
"No, it's not!" He yelled. I flinched.
"I- I love you. S-Sorry." I ended the call before anything else could happen. I let out a sob, pulling my knees to my chest. This was for the best, right?
Tears streaked my cheeks. This was my choice. I shouldn't be the one crying, right? Not right.
It's better for the both of you. He has a fake girlfriend and is halfway across the world.
"I'm sorry." I whispered to myself, my voice cracking. I kept repeating that, over and over. "I'm sorry."
Lexi was fast asleep, I didn't want to wake her What I needed was my mom. I grabbed my car keys and ran out of the dorm. I started my truck, pulling onto the road. I kept wiping my eyes, tears blurry my vision; I eventually made it to my parent's house. I hurried up the steps and banged on the door as loud as I could. I leaned against the door frame for support. I didn't stop until my mom opened the door.
"Carter?! What are you doing here-" My mom asked. I cut her off by jumping towards her and wrapping my arms around her. I buried my face in her chest.
"I-I broke it o-off with L-Logan." I cried. I could tell she was shocked. She led me to the living room, giving me a blanket and a glass of water before explaining to her the events of tonight.
.
When people say their heart is broken, they literally mean it. Without that other person, you're nothing. That other piece of your heart, the one they filled, is gone. Even if iit's your fault, it still hurts. Badly.
"Carter, are you going to class today or..?" Lexi asked, opening my door.
"Leave me alone." I said hoarsely from under my blanket.
"It's been 3 days, hon."
"It takes longer than that for a heart to heal."
"I know but you need to try."
"I already finished my tests. When they come to make sure I'm actually sick I'll use a heating pad or something. Next week, I promise." Next week was our last week.
"Fine. Call me if you need me." I made a noise as some sort of reply before my door shut. I heard the dorm door shut after that. I took the covers off my head for fresh air. I sat up slowly. I glanced at my reflection in the mirror. My face has dried tears all over it, my hair in a rats nest.
I decided to take a shower. I got the shower, flinching at the scorching hot water. I ran my lemon shampoo through my hair, scrubbing my scalp. I scrubbed my body, finishing up. I stood there, my eyes closed.
Get over him.
It's not that easy.
Yeah, it is.
I hadn't even realized I was crying again. I didn't know I even had anymore tears left. I just stood there, crying, letting the water burn my skin. Because honestly, I just didn't care anymore.
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Fixing Us | Sequel to Forgotten Love
Fanfiction6 months. 26 weeks. 182 days. 4,382 hours. 262,974 minutes. 15,638,400 seconds. I spent that long without Logan, without seeing him face to face. With him on tour and me in college we barely even talked. Too much happened during that time. To...
