Connor Jessup Imagines (requests are closed)

"...and fire" (part two; requested)

[soooooo it was requested by a beautiful person for a part two of the "...and fire" imagine that I need to rename because I'm an awful person but uh I secretly already wrote (most of) it... I'm debating on making it a short story and fair warning, its all over the place its like after the first time Ben and Maggie kissed but they're in Charleston (and I can't even remember if they were in Charleston at the time, I really don't think so) but yeah. It was just easier.]

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You kept taking small glances towards him, hoping he'd look back at you but he didn't. Not once. You figured he must not have enjoyed it like you did and you started feeling slightly insecure but more pissed off at the green eyed math geek.

You could see Hal and Maggie talking by their sentry post and looked over at Ben who sure enough, was looking straight at the blonde.

Fed up with your emotions and with Ben, you walked past him and back into camp. You heard someone call your name but you ignored it and went to you and Denny's tent.

She was in there, lacing up her shoes on her bunk. "Hey, how was target practice with Ben?" She says, looking up and winking. "Why are you winking? It was just target practice." You say, laying back on your bunk.

"You know spiked kids have super hearing, right?" She asks and you mumble a response, not caring why she'd ask that. "And you know that you and Ben were loud, right?" You shot up and furrowed your eyebrows.

"Theres no possible way you could have heard us!" You whisper yell. She laughs, "I didn't, but now I know there was something to hear." She says, laughing again. You groan.

"Damn you." You say, laying back down and sighing.

"What did he do?" She asks in a tired tone, already knowing he did something wrong.

"That's the thing, he did nothing. He didn't say a word to me afterwards and was gawking at Maggie as soon as we got within sight of her." You spill, trusting Denny. She was the closest friend you had, her and Ben drifted over time and you defended her to Pope and other random assholes, hence why she trusted you just as much.

"What on earth are we gonna do with Benji?" She says to herself, sighing.

You didn't reply as you sighed, wondering how he really felt towards you. You almost wanted to ask but you figured you would wait it out for a few days and see if his actions changed towards you. You two had just shared an intimate thing and you guessed he just needed time to think and you needed the same.

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B E N

"(Y/N)!" Hal called out as she simply kept walking past him. "What happened out there? She looks upset." He asks and I shrug.

"Nothing. She did good." With both activities we did.

"Oh. Good, I'll go let Joey know." He says but still doesn't look convinced. I look over at Maggie after he walks off. "How are the spikes?" I ask, worried halfy about her and also worried that if she could literally feel when I'm sad that she could tell when I felt other things.

"Good actually. I think I'm getting used to them finally." She says, tucking her hair behind her ear. "It's weird though, knowing I am no longer alone in my head or my body. Not sure I like it but I don't necessarily hate it." She says and I nod, simply understanding how she feels.

"So what happened with you and (y/n)?" She asks suddenly and I shrug. "Nothing, why does everyone keep asking that?" I sigh.

She scoffs, "Well obviously something happened. I'm not an idiot, Ben." She says.

It was quiet as we were both watching our post, I knew I should stay with her at least until Hal got back since he decided to just up and leave. I was thinking too much about too many things and I still refused to even answer her.

I didn't know if I still had feelings for Maggie, I just knew that I simply couldn't. Whether or not if the attraction we had towards each other had to do with my feelings for her before the transplant or not, it couldn't happen anymore.

Maggie made it pretty clear that she only loved Hal and he made it clear that I should stay away from her period.

But the main question was, did I have feelings for (y/n)?

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Its short but there will be part three if I don't decide write it as a damn fanfic instead and post it separately (reason why I say damn fanfic is because well... I write too much stuff and I don't publish like 80% of it because it doesn't get reads and I already attempted a FS fic and it didn't go well hence why its no longer on my profile.)