Until my heart stops beating [ButtahBenzo]

Chapter 9 - A talk at The Brew

Ashley's POV

PERFECT. It was the one thing I could describe our kiss. Well one of the most things, it also felt surreal, but perfectly surreal. Like you know one of those things where you feel like what's happening is not real because you thought it would never happen but it happened anyway, so it felt surreal. It's also perfect because the way her lips move in synchronize with mine is perfect. It's like her lips were meant for mine, like we were meant to kiss somehow. Okay I'm sorry if I'm babbling but that's what happens when you're kissing someone who you really loved for a long time.

I was still having the most magical moment of my life when I felt a slight push breaking us from our kiss. She looked at me like she was unsure of what happened. Like she...regretted it. No! This can't happen, she can't regret this. No fucking way! This is not happening right now.

I braced myself up as I hear the most hurtful words that came out from her mouth.

"I-i am sorry. T-this was a mistake!" I felt a stab in my chest as she said those words and hurriedly left the room without uttering a single goodbye.

She can't fucking do this to me! She can't just fucking leave me after SHE kissed me! This is un-fucking-believable! Just as you thought things were going right, but then reality slaps you hard in the face every damn fucking time![A/N sorry for all the cussing]

I let myself drop on the bed as I felt the hot tears coming out of my brimming eyes crying pathetically because of a girl I loved too much.

"Honey? What's wrong? I saw Shanno-" my mom said walking up the stairs stopping when she saw me crying.

"Oh honey what's wrong?" she asked hugging me and slowly rubbing my back.

"Nothing. I'm just tired mom, can you please let me take a nap." I said wiping away the tears covering myself up from my mom.

"I'm not sure if I believe you right now but if you're not ready to talk about what happened then I won't push you. Go take a nap baby! I'll be right her if you need me. She said giving me a reassuring smile and kissing me in the forehead.

I muttered a simple thank you for her understanding me. I gave her a weak smile and propped myself up inside the covers of my bed hoping that, that was the last time I would have to deal with Shannon again.

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Shay's POV

NO! NO! NO! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! I repeatedly hit myself in the forehead with a closed-fist for doing something that would ruin everything for me and Ashley. I mean come on! I FREAKING KISSED HER THEN JUST STORMED OUT LIKE IT MEANT NOTHING TO ME! Pretty fucking stupid for someone who was waiting for that kiss to happen for ages!

I calmed myself down as I reached my car hurriedly starting up the engine, firing away from Ashley's house. I don't know where I was going but I just followed the straight path ahead leading to God-knows-where. My knuckles were geting whiter from gripping so hard at the steering wheel, that I think if the steering wheel could talk it probably complained by now. Okay, now's not really the good time to be having jokes Shannon! I scolded myself as I pass a couple of buildings before coming to a stop in the middle of the road trying to contemplate in what I just did.

"Maybe...maybe this is for the better you know. So I could get away from Ashley and try to forget about my feelings for her because I'm pretty sure she hates me with all her guts now after I just kissed her and ran away!" I ran my hand over my face showing how frustrated I am to this situation.