Breakeven •Ashton Irwin•

Eight

Ashton Fletcher Irwin,

Why did you hate your middle name? It suits you so well. I can still remember that one day when I called you Fletcher for the whole day and you hated me for it. Every Time I said it I would burst into a fit of giggles and you would just glare at me, that day, that day made me happy. I was having a bad day but doing that made me feel so much better.

All that heartbreak you went through during high school, I was by your side. Cause you should know really well that when a heart breaks, it don't break even. You should know that after all the heart break you went through and then you go and break my heart. We had our bad days. A few big fights where we didn't talk to each other for a few days. That killed me a little inside.

The one which really sticks with me is the one that occurred at one of your family dinners. I had just had a really bad day after hearing from my dad after all those years. You made it worse by dumping a heap of shit onto me about how shitty you played.

I didn't care about your music that night, or how you played. I screamed in your face for at least half an hour with everyone hearing me and then I ran off and to a safe spot. The worst part was, you didn't even come looking for me. You didn't even try contacting me to see if I was okay.

That hurt Ashton, that really hurt.

You're the only one who knows about my safe spot. The only one who could come to help me. After that We didn't talk for almost 3 days. It killed me inside not to message you, call you or even talk to you in the halls. but in the end, I was the bigger person and apologised. What I really wanted to say right in your face was "fück you ärsehole." But instead  I kept my cool and said sorry.

I thought those days would be the worst days of my life. but you have proved me wrong. You left with a click of my fingers,  with no goodbye, nothing.

Your an ärsehole, a real ärsehole for doing that. I find it hard to trust anyone now. I only ever trusted you but now I don't know if I can ever trust  you again.

But I fücking love you Ashton. more than you know

Love,
Nina x

Written by Jodie

Edited by Jasmine

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