Breakeven •Ashton Irwin•

Five

Ashton Fletcher Irwin,

Today I got a phone call from my old friend Sonja. Yes that Sonja, the weird one that you would always comment about. The one you'd always say you have a hypothesis that she was born on Uranus or something. That's why she's such a bizarre girl. You'd always make harmless jokes about the wacky girl like that. When I'd ask you 'why Uranus?' You'd snort and say 'because Neptune Saturn Uranus' then you'd laugh hysterically at the age old joke like it was the funniest thing on earth. I swear you never matured past the age of seven Ashton, but that was okay.
I never minded.

Everything about you was perfect Ashton.

I told Sonja everything over the long distance call we were having. She was visiting her family in Europe. She's probably closer to you at the present time than me. This makes me feel alone.

Sonja said that she'd been reading those inspirational self-help documents recently. She told me that in an, and I quote 'an amazing online article written by a professional, strong and inspirational woman living in Amsterdam' she'd read said that that the best way to get over hurt, grief or anything unpleasant on your mind was to distract yourself by doing the things you love, to treat yourself once in a while, that it's all about YOU.

Sonja said that it's really helped her. That most of her problems seem as small as the head of a pin.

I find that funny. How her best days can be some of my worst.

But I guess it's worth a try. 

So that's why I've started drawing again Ashton. As I know you are aware, drawing has been, other than you of course. My one major love.

This drawing started off small. just a small butterfly in the corner of the page but it escalated into a young, dark, girl with butterflies fluttering out of her hair. I'm not sure myself what this drawing means or if it is supposed to represent something, it's just where my mind took me. It always happens. I get lost in my drawings and they take me away to another place, another time.

I'm so glad I have my drawings back. But what I really want back, is you.

I miss you Ashton.

Love,
Nina Abigail Menzies

Written by Jasmine

Edited by Jodie

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