Something inside me was telling him to just break down and tell him right now. But another part was saying not to tell him, because when I tell someone they leave, with the exception of Becca and Jesse of course. I looked down, “I can't... not yet, I'm not ready,” I whisper. He gets up and paces, “When are you going to be ready to tell me Kassie... Because right now I feel like you can't even trust me,” he yells making me flinch. I look at him a little mad now, “Oh I'm keeping secrets, how about the fact that your father fucking abuses your mom and you... You kept that from me, something that you should have told me because you knew I would find out someday, but you didn't so I think I have a right to have my own secrets..... Besides you wouldn't understand, you would just look at me as more broken then I already am,” I scream. His face softens and he looks at me, “Ka--” I cut him off, “No, just don't..... You have no idea what I have gone through in my life time...... You know, maybe you should go to one of the guys house,” I say pushing him out of my room and slamming the door. I turn so my bad is against it and I slide to the floor in tears. I hear Blake lean his head on the door, “Kassie, let me in... I'm sorry,” He whispers. I don't say anything back. I just sit there crying. I should have known Blake was to good, to good for me. I can never be happy, because when I am they get taken from me. Look, I had a perfect family, they got taken from me, I had Blake, now he is gone. It all leads back to them, the people who started all this, I hate them so much.
The next day I refused to get out of bed. I am still in tears, I cried all night. Becca is currently in my room freaking out, “Kassie Maree, get your ass out of bed. We have school,” she says pacing. I lay facing the wall so she can't see me. What is the point in going to school? All people do there is hate me. Ugh, now look, we bring up the topic of my past and I go into some depression stage, just flipping great. “fine,” She shouts, “You leave me no choice,” she says whipping out her cell phone. She waits then smiles, “Jesse, hey, are you busy?” she asked. Then frowns, “Alright, well don't speed and scare the poor kid,” She says hanging up. Then she opens it up again, “Hey babe, I need some help,” And with that she smiles and hangs up. I pull my hood on and curl up in a ball.
A few minutes later I hear Becca talking in the hall, “I don't know what happened but she has completely shut the world out, even me,” I hear Becca say. Then Chris voice fills the air, “I'm pretty sure it has something to do with Blake, he came to my place last night a mess. He said him and Kass got in a fight and she kicked him out,” he says. I hear Becca sigh, “Well, I can't get her to talk, eat, or even get out of bed. I'm worried about her,” Becca sigh. Then my door opens and I hear Chris walk in, “Hey kass,” he whispers sitting on the edge of my bed. I don't even make an attempt to move. He puts his hand on my arm, “Kass, come on. You have to go to school, and eat. Please, Becca is worried about you, and just looking at you so am I,” he says. I can here the worry in his voice. Ugh, damn these people and making me feel guilty. I slowly turn my head to look at him. He smiles a little, “See, that wasn't so bad,” he say getting up and holding out his hand, “Come on,” he says. I look at him then his hand before taking it. I slowly get up and see Becca standing by the door. I think to last night when Blake stood there yelling at me. I looked down holding back tears. Chris pulled me in a hug and pushed him away walking past Becca and to my bathroom. I got dressed and ready and walked out pushing past them again until I was in Chris car waiting for them. They came out, both in the front. Chris kept looking at me through the mirror and Becca was turned facing me.
When we got to school I stayed in the back while they got out. They didn't notice until already half way to the doors. Chris walked over and opened the door and knelt down to my level, “Alright, what did he do? I will kick his ass for hurting you if that is the case Kass,” He says looking completely serious. Which I know he was, he seen me as a little sister so he would do anything to protect me. I look at him and shake my head and climb out. I grab his arm and lean my head on his shoulder as we catch up to Becca. Becca smiles at me and holds Chris free hand as we make our way to class. First hour we all had together, and with Blake. When we entered the room Blake was sitting in the back where we all sat. Only this time Chris switched spots so he was next to Blake and I was on Chris's other side. Blake looked at me with a frown, “Kas--” Becca cut him off, “Don't Blake, I think you did enough for a few days,” she said with venom. He sigh, “You don't even know what happened Becca,” he said calmly. Chris chuckles a little, “We don't have to know what happened... When she kicks you out, then she won't talk, eat, and we have to force her out of bed, that is all we need to know that you did something stupid again,” He says leaning back with his arms crossed. A look of guilt crosses Blakes face as he looks at me. I don't make eye contact with him at all the whole calss. “Ms. Maree, are you feeling ill,” the teacher asks. I don't even look up so Becca answers for me, “Just a bad day, she will be alright,” she says. The teacher nods and finishes the lesson before the bell rings. I quickly gather all of my stuff and leave the room.
