Big Hero 6 One Shots (X Reader)

This Isn't Me (Hiro x Reader)

Warning: this one is pretty sad

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I surge to the floor. The weight pushing against the back of my neck forces me down. I feel a sharp pain there, but I'm unable to scream.

"(Y/n)!" Hiro shouts, running up to me. "Are you alright? Are you hurt?" He grabs my arm to help me up. When I stand I feel lighter than I did before. Unfocused. I'm about to answer his question when I hear a voice.

"Don't touch me." I do something I never would have done in a million years. I hit his arm away from holding onto mine. I realize all too late that the voice was my own.

"(Y/n)? What's wrong." He takes off his helmet so I can look him in the eyes. He knows I like that.

"I'm fine." I hear my voice say, bitterly. "Just get me away from you."

Hiro! Get out! This isn't me! I try to scream, but I can feel the words unable to form in my mouth. My movements aren't my own and I want to scream. But I can't. It drives me mad. The look of hurt on Hiro's face makes my anger and frustration turn into an insane rage.

I feel my body walk away from Hiro against my command. My suit usually makes me feel stiff, but my movements are fluid. They require no effort. Instead it feels like I'm being pushed forward. Hiro's glove grabs my arm again.

"Please, (y/n). I want to help you."

"I told you not to touch me." My voice yells, the cold tone echoing around the dark and abandoned building. My arm pushes his away with such force that he holds it, wincing.

Stop! He doesn't deserve this! Hiro RUN!  

My unheard yelling and screaming makes me feel defenseless. Helpless. I panic, and my body feels numb.

"Okay I won't. Just let me help you."

"Leave!" I hear the same cold voice shout. This time I- no my body, sweeps Hiro's legs from under him. Causing him to fall face up on the concrete floor. Once again he winces from the pain.

"(Y/n)," he says faintly after having his wind knocked out. "Please let me help you." A tear starts to form in his eye.

Stop this! I love him! Stop it! Stop!

I can't take it. My fighting has only made me panic more, become more insane. But I have to. The look of pain in his eyes hurts so much. There's no choice.

Stop it! Stop it! Stop!

I repeat the same two words until I hear something, my own voice again. Inside my head.

If you really loved him you could have saved him already.

The words make me want to cry, but I can't. The voice in my head breaks my sanity and I continue to scream my one thought. Louder and louder.

STOP! STOP IT! STOP!

In an instant my knees bend down, my body leans forward in his direction, and my gloved hand violently hits Hiro's face. Blood starts to trickle down from his cheek.

STOP IT! STOP IT!

"STOP!" My own voice cries out so loudly that it hurts my throat. I feel something cold and small remove itself from the back of my neck. It falls onto the ground with a metallic clank.

I collapse. I suddenly have no energy, no strength. I can barely move. My tears finally come and it feels like they'll never stop. I pick up my arm, not caring how much it hurts. I smash the small robot with my glove using all of my force. I do it again, regain my strength, then again. I repeat this over and over. Smashing the robot whenever I have the physical ability to, tears falling on the ground beside it. My arm hurts from lifting it so many times, my hand from hitting the concrete with my glove.

I feel Hiro's hand stop me.

"(Y/n), you'll hurt yourself." I turn my head away from him. He doesn't deserve what I've done to him. The pain that I've caused.

Hiro removes his gloves and grabs my head in his hands, turning me gently to look at his face, smeared with blood. A mark of what I've done.

"It's okay," he tells me. "I'm okay."

I shake my head. "No," I try to speak through my sobs, but my voice is strained and cracking. "I hurt you and I....I'm so sorry. You shouldn't-"

"Shh. It's okay." Hiro says in a soothing voice. He brings me close to him, embracing me as we sit on the ground. I can't help but cry on his shoulder.

"It's alright. I love you. It's okay." He whispers to me. Hiro turns his neck to kiss my forehead.

"I'm so sorry." I whisper back, trying to steady my breath. "I love you."