poetry of the confused soul

I Love You

I love you

These three words have been on the tip of my tongue

For days and weeks that we've talked

I've held myself back from telling this to you

Because I feel scared that you just might walk

I know you feel the same as I do

But I'm scared of the future beyond it

How the possibility of me using you

Is taunting me into a dark pit

I can't stand the thought that it could happen again

Our past relived in its gruesome way

The way the tears fell from our eyes

And how I felt that I had to pay

I took advantage of the love you gave

And of the care you showed to me

I used every ounce for my own self-esteem

Just so that I could feel happy

You willingly risked your heart for me

Your vulnerabilities and emotions

So open and fragile

I could see your devotion

But no

I can't tell you

Because if say it

I wouldn't know what to do