Bag Lady:(Book One)

Bag 29--STUPID

I laid in the bed, feeling depressed than I ever been, I was mad at the actions I made, How can I kill my child? Had been a question running through my mind for the last four weeks. It took some time to realized that the baby wasn't a mistake, I was just mad at Andrew, so I did it.

How could I be so dumb? I silently cried and looked at the pure white sheets. I heard foot steps entered the room and I knew it was Andrew. I still haven't told him I aborted our child and didn't break up with him yet, because now I feel very bad.

He sat next to me and rubbed my back.

"Hey beautiful, you feelin better"

"Yeah I'm okay baby, my head still hurts a little though"

"When's your next check up for the baby"

I didn't respond, I just stared down at the sheets. I felt him starring at me, like he's been watching body language.

"What's wrong Janessa?"

"Nothin baby, I'm just thinking"

"Well I gotta go to work" he got up and kissed me on my forehead.

"I love you girl"

"I love-- I love you too Drew"

He started heading the door and then he stopped.

"Nessa, thankyou for forgiving me. I know it was a hard thing for you to do. But I'm gkad that you looked passed my mistakes,  my intentions were never to hurt you."

I didn't respond, I felt guilt burn into my chest. I then heard him walk out of the room and that's when I let all of my tears flow from my eyes down to my cheeks.

.......

"Am I  a bitch for this Nye? Be real"

She motioned her head up and down.

"God! I feel so guilty, not only because of Andrew. But I took away my babies life. I'm so stupid" I banged my fist againts my head and cried.

"Nessa, I wanna comfort you and say people make mistakes. But you were wrong, you ain't have to take his baby. You didn't do it to Desi when you found out Tae was the 'supposedly' the daddy, but you did it to Drew"

"Because I was mad! All these damn emotions was running through my brain. I know I'm wrong."

"So how you gon tell him?"

"I don't know"

"Well don't keep it from him"

"He's gonna be so hurt, I'm so stupid Nye! I got rid of his baby"

Jazilyn POV 

"Um Ms.Jones and Mr.King, I have some bad news regarding towards your daughter" Tne doctor said in a saddened tone as she walked in.

"What's wrong with her" I whined

"She is suffering from baby shake syndrome, thats what led to her seizure"

"No! No!" I cried and I looked at Dalontè

"Did you hear that Tae?"

"How bad is it?" He asked the doctor.

"It's a major brain injury and her case, She's gonna have to stay with us for a while, umm Mr.King can I have you step out of the room for a sec?"

"Why?!"

"It's just a procedure we do"

He gave me a death glare as he grabbed his crunches and walked out the room. The doctor sat infront of me and gave me a discouraging look.

"Ms.Jones, are you in a abusive relationship?"

I shook my head no as I saw Dalontè looking through the small window.

"Well you've been in the hospital for more than five injuries. Is he hitting you, because usually baby shake syndrome comes from an angry parent"

"I didn't shake my baby"

"Jazily either you tell me the full truth or the social worker has to come in and im positive that you don't want Journie in foster care. I see the bruises on you honey, is he beating you and is it a possibility he did this her."

"Yes he did it"

"What happen?"

"He shook her upside down by her foot" I admitted and start crying.

"Why?"

"Because I left him and he wanted me to come home, he threatened to kill her if I don't"

She nodded and held my hand 

"Listen to me baby girl, you have to get away from him"

"If he found out I told yall, he gon kill me"

"Well we can't let you go home with him, it's againts the rules. Were gonna protect"

"No one can protect me from him!"

"We're gonna get you some help alright"

"Is he gonna go to jail?"

She nodded her head yes.

"Okay"

She let Dalontè back in and he sat next to me.

After 15 minutes police officers came in and Dalontè looked at me.

"What's goin on?" He asked.

"Dalontè King, you are under arrest for child abuse" the police officer said as he assisted him out of his chair and put him and hand cuffs.

"So you told them?! You snitched on me bitch"

"For the sake of my daughter!" I cried

They led him out of the room and my heart began to race and it felt very heated.

Janessa POV 

Andrew sat at his computer and read his emails. I sat next to him and rubbed the back of his neck with my finger.

"Drew?"

"Huh?"

"I have something important to tell you"

"Can it wait?"

"It's about the baby"

He turned his head to me and looked concerned.

"What's wrong?"

"Drew--I umm-- I go-- somethin ha--"

I didn't know how to say it, how do I tell him this.

"Baby what's wrong? Tell me"

"I got an-- I got an-- I'm sorry but I got an abortion"

He instantly stood up and slapped me.

"YOU KILLED MY BABY! YOU ABORTED MY CHILD!" His voice boomed through the apartment.

I stood up and slowly backed away from him, as veins showed from his head and he balled up his fist.

"Baby I'm-- Im-- I'm sorry" I whined.

He grabbed my arm and held me againts the wall.

"YOU ABORTED MY BABY?! Why you do that?"

"Because I was mad"I whined

He choked me up

"You stupid! You know that? You are stupid! No matter what I did to you, that gave you no right to kill my child. It was innocent. Get yo stuff and get out" he let me go and I ran away from him and start packing me my things quickly

"Desireè we have to go!" I yelled out the door.

"My daughter ain't gotta go no where, I said you!"