Bag Lady:(Book One)

Bag 26--Suicidal

"Why'd you do it Drew? Why?" I cried, he grabbed me and looked me in eyes.

"I hate you Andrew! I hate you." I whined

"Baby I'm sorry okay, I know I messed up back then, I know Janessa! But I love you."

"You don't love me! Stop lying! Kada setting me up! You don't love me! Love don't have a damn thing to do with this!" I screamed

"Look! I'm not here because Kada sent me, I love you! I swear. Baby, I didn't mean to do that to you, that night I was drunk,"

"Oh you were drunk? So you didn't hear me cryin'! You stole my virginity away from me, you got me pregnant when I was 15. " I started to tear up.

"Janessa--- I was young okay. I didn't know who you were back then, I know I was wrong,but baby right now I really love you"

"You raped me Drew, I can't be with no rapist. Why you didn't leave me alone when you realized I was the girl you raped?"

"I didn't find out it was you until that day Drew walked up to us at the school, he called me and told me who you were, I didn't stop talking to you because I--"

"You wanted to see Desireè?" I cutted him off.

"That too, but because the first day I saw you I fell in love."

"Why he take the fall for you?!"

"So I can go to college"

I nodded my head and smirked

"So you couldn't just take the time like a real man huh? I don't understand,so he went through all of this to protect yo ass? Wow."

"So you wasn't gonna tell me, you was just gonna act like shit was smooth?! You was gonna look Desireè in her face and act like that wasn't YOUR baby girl. Why you come back?"

"Janessa, I'm-- baby I fucked up. I know that I-- that I raped you, but I ain't mean to girl! I was drunk that night but I was still wrong and I'm truly sorry. But I'm in love with you" he rubbed my belly, that only showed a 2 month form.

"Drew I love you" I stared blankly at the floor "I love you, but I can't be with you. That alone hurt me. In the fact that you gave me this promise ring and broke about almost all the promises, just says I can't be with you."

"Nessa?" He said teary eyed "I'm in love with you, I know it's weird but its true. I'm not here to cause you any more pain, I don't know what Lontè snd Kae got goin on but im not a part of that.......I just want to be apart you"

I just stared at him with no emotion,then I punched him dead in his face, he held his noes and looked at me.

"I deserved that, hit me again. You can take your frustrations out on me"

I striked him in his eye, than I sat on the bed and just weeped.

"Can I be a father to Desireè and a man to you"

"No! Your a rapist, a liar and you have a teeny wincy bit of pussy in you"

"What?! Look I'm never gonna hurt you again. I wanna be a father to my kids, and I wanna be with you"

"I'll be a dumb ass if I take you back"

"You said if I loved you I'll tell the truth and I did. And I am very ashamed of my self"

I started crying

"I should kill you!"

"Baby, it was in the past!"

"The past that ruined my life Andrew! We're over!"

"Mommy are you okay?"

Desireè and Ria stood in the door way.

"Desi come here"

She walked over to me and I placed her in front of Andrew.

"Tell her" I said sternly

"Why can't you do it?!"

"Really Drew?"

He kneeled down and looked into her eyes.

"Hey" he smiled,

"Hey Drew"

"Desireè, I'm your-- I'm your daddy"

"I already have a dad"

"That's not your dad Desi, Drew is" I said

She looked up at me

"I'm confused mom"

"I thought Dalontè was your dad, but apparently this pedophile is"

"So Ria and A.J is my brother and sister?"

"Yeah" he replied

"Well okay Drew, goodnight" she tapped his head and skipped out the room and the kids went back into the room,

"Well she took that very well" he smirked.

I took off the promise ring and tossed it on the dresser.

"It's over Drew, I can't be with no rapist. I would kill you but I love your kids"

"Desireè let's go!" I said as I start putting on my clothes.

"Nessa, I'm sorry"

"Of course you are, and I'm sorry that I ever met your sorry ass."

"What about my daughter I can't be in her life?"

"No Drew"

"But I told you the truth" he whined "And you distinctly said that you wouldn't get mad"

"Oh I'm not mad, me being mad would be me stabbing you 30 times in the throat and hitting you upside the head with this fuckin hammer, I'm just hurt and I feel used. I never had a real love, I had a baby by a rapist"

"A rapist that changed and fell in love with the most virtuous woman on earth. Your beautiful."

"What ever"

"If you leave I'll go crazy, I'll probably kill myself." He looked at the ground and opened his balcony door.

"Should I jump?"

Jazilyn POV

My phone rung, playing "Flex" by Rich Homie Quan, I answered it before the volume waked up Journie.

"Hello?"

"What's good baby, I miss you"

"Dalonte?"

"Yeah bae, what you doin'"

"Stop callin me"

"You know I'm not mad at you, cause I keep on fuckin up, I'm hittin on you and cheating on you and shit and Jazzy I'm sorry. You know I love you though right?"

"You don't love me, I heard you got Riana thot ass pregnant, what's that all about Tae?"

"Shit....you was pregnant and I couldn't do shit with you. I have needs. But I want you more than I want her. I got you a gift"

"I don't curr" I said in my deep southern accent.

"Come home baby, I wanna make everything up to you."

"No your gonna beat my ass"

"Girl I'm in wheelchair" he laughed "The fuck imma do run over yo toes"

I giggled and smiled at the phone.

"Come home, I miss you and Journie."

"I'm scared"

"It's nothin to be scared about baby, I'm not gon touch you, come on.

Yes I know this chapter is dumb

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